Monsta [book 2]

034

santana's point of view

Hyungwon and I have been having a stare off in my office for twenty minutes now.

Me: I'll ask one more time, how are you feeling today?
Hyungwon: Good.

He's lying through his perfect little teeth. He has bags, his eyes are red, his hair is a mess, his clothes are stretched out and baggy not to mention he arrived to the building fifteen minutes late.

Me: Rough night? Didn't sleep well?
Hyungwon: I slept fine.
Me: Then why do you look like you got ran over by a train?

He sighs.

Hyungwon: When you go so long without talking about what's wrong it can be hard to change that.

I nod as he continues.

Hyungwon: It's weird, this counseling thing has been helping the guys. Minhyuk has started listening more, Kihyun has stopped nagging so much, Changkyun expresses himself better, Wonho doesn't take things so personally now, Jooheon doesn't distance himself as much and Shownu..

He pauses.

Hyungwon: Well he's Shownu.
Me: And you?
Hyungwon: I feel like it's okay for me not to be happy all the time.

I smile a little.

Hyungwon: It's exhausting trying to be happy all the time. I'm human too and I deserve to feel human emotions without being looked at weirdly. Being an idol means nothing.

FINALLY.

This is what I wanted him to see all along.

And not just him, everyone.

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I leave my office for the day, an exhausted yawn leaves my lips. The boys ended up going home before me which rarely ever happens.

I say my goodbyes to the receptionist and security guards who scatter around the hallway. Once I'm outside I enjoy the cool breeze before heading towards my car.

My steps slow down as I hear other footsteps not too far behind. It goes quiet so I start to walk again and so do they.

I glance behind me and there's someone dressed in all black, oh shit.

I start to run as fast as my legs would carry me and then the shittiest thing happened.

I fell.

My purse falls to the ground and everything in it goes flying. I curse under my breath once I realize I scrapped my knee to the point of blood and tore a hole in my stockings.

I snap my neck up to the person approaching me.

Me: You asshole, you owe me a pair of stockings! Because of you mine ripped.

They stop walking and remove their hood, my eyes widen.

Anthony: Your first thought wasn't that I could be a killer but to scold me about your clothes?

I blink.

Me: Well are you a killer?

He rolls his eyes.

He begins to help me up and gather my items from off the ground.

Me: Why are you chasing people in a parking garage.
Anthony: I didn't mean to scare you, I just wanted to talk to you.
Me: How do you know who I am?
Anthony: You've been with the guys.

I raise an eyebrow.

Me: How do you know that?
Anthony: I've been watching.

Stalking.

Me: Are you the one who leaked that picture to dispatch?

He shakes his head.

Anthony: No but I know who did.

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I'm a thousand percent sure Wonho would kill me if he knew where I was. Anthony places a mug of tea down in front of me as he takes a seat on the couch.

His apartment is really nice, you can tell he was responsible with his money.

Me: What happened?

He sighs.

Anthony: I knew everything that the boys were going through, things they didn't want the other members to know but I always found out.

Ah yes, it's like a parents intuition.

Anthony: I knew about Taeyun's debt with all his gambling as well as Jay's alcohol addiction. That whole I don't drink thing was never believable.

He runs his hand through his hair before continuing.

Anthony: RJ was okay, he just had really bad abandonment issues. Which is why it killed me when I talked to the CEO.
Me: Why would you do that? Why wouldn't you just talk to them about their problems first?

It annoys me so much that he didn't believe in the people he claimed to love.

Me: Do you know how devastated Lee was?
Anthony: I thought I was doing what was best for the group as the eldest.
Me: Without speaking to them first? And what about you, huh? Are you perfect?

He chuckles.

Anthony: Far from it. They day I went to talk with the CEO Jay and Taeyun was also called into the office.

My eyebrows furrow together.

Anthony: They know why what happened, happened. Lee and RJ don't but Jay and Taeyun do. They both got served with letters.
Me: Letters?
Anthony: Jay needed to spend some time getting clean and Taeyun needed to get his habits under control or talk to the police. That was the only way they could return to the company. They needed to clean their mess up.

I rub my temples.

Me: Lee and RJ?
Anthony: Two by-standers that got hurt.

My mind can not comprehend this.

Me: So what exactly did you say to the CEO?
Anthony: I proposed the idea of a hiatus, so everyone can get themselves together. He said only if Taeyun and Jay agreed, they didn't.

My eyes widen.

Anthony: I had my own dilemma as well. After a night in the club turned wild this girl said she was pregnant with my baby.
Me: Wasn't Jay the one with a pregnant fiancé?
Anthony: He had a fiancé, yes, but she wasn't pregnant. People started to mix up my rumors with his and got pregnant fiancé.

I rub my hands over my face.

Me: Well was the girl pregnant?

He shrugs his shoulder.

Anthony: She refused to see me and still does. She texts my phone every week asking for money but denying me of anything else having to do with my child.
Me: Who is this women?
Anthony: I met her at a club and after one too many drinks we had sex. She disappeared then a month or so later she reappeared saying she was a few weeks pregnant.
Me: What's her name?
Anthony: MaeLynn.

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Anthony is played by... Kim Ki-bum (from:: SHINee)