Monsta [book 2]

026

santana's point of view

I sit at the table twiddling my thumbs, he sighs as if he's having an inner battle with himself. Changkyun looks stress out and just tired, the sight makes me sad.

I grab his hand from across the table and he smiles a little.

Me: It's getting late, we don't have to talk if you don't want to. You need to get some rest.
Changkyun: No, I need to tell you this. I feel like if I tell you a burden will finally be lifted off my chest.

I nod understandingly.

Changkyun: When I was twenty-one I had a girlfriend by the name of Angel. I thought she was my soulmate, that we'd be together forever.

He laughs bitterly.

Changkyun: In my eyes she could do no wrong, she was literally an angel. My love for her overshadowed red flags I should've seen. For some reason I believed anything she told me, love is truly blind.

He pauses for a second and I squeeze his hand for reassurance.

Changkyun: She was cheating on me with a close friend, I wasted a year of my life on her. The saddest part is I blamed myself for it, I kept thinking what could I have done differently so she wouldn't cheat.

Poor baby.

Changkyun: She never loved me. She just loved the money that I came with.
Me: I'm so sorry Kyunie.
Changkyun: That's why I'm so insecure or paranoid when I see someone being too friendly with you or vice versa. It's something I really need to work on and I'm sorry.

I stand up from the table and smile, I tug him from the kitchen and up the stairs to his room.

We both lay down and stare at each other, he smiles and I fight the urge to kiss all over his cute little face.

Me: I love you.
Changkyun: I love you more.

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A yawn leaves my lips as I wait for Lee. His appointment was suppose to start five minutes ago, I'm going to strangle him.

He knows I hate when they're late.

As if on cue the door opens in his rushes in apologizing and bowing. He plops down into the chair and sighs. Judging from his hair sticking to his forehead I'd say he had a pretty intense dance practice.

Me: You okay?
Lee: Yeah, just tired.

He closes his eyes and tilts his head back.

Me: Lee, when's the last time you've had a good rest and a homecooked meal?
Lee: It's been a long time.

Just then an idea pops up in my head!

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bts looked reallll good at their japan concert today