Monsta [book 2]

025

santana's point of view

I chew on my pizza pretzel as my eyes dart between the two boys, the atmosphere is awkward but at the same time it isn't.

Lee: How did you end up here?
Taeyun: Well, it's no secret that I was pretty much the irresponsible one in the group. Therefore I didn't save up as much money as I should have to survive.

Ah.

Taeyun: So I needed a job and then boom.
Lee: I don't get it, you wrote most of our songs. You had royalty credits, you had money to blow and then some.

He let's out an uneasy laugh.

Taeyun: There's something you don't know about me little brother.

Lee raises an eyebrow, Taeyun bows his head in shame before sighing.

Taeyun: I had a serious gambling problem. I owed a disgusting amount of debt which left me with nothing. I don't even own my house anymore I had to move into some apartment complex.

The look on Taeyun's face makes me want to cry, especially since I've been there before. I know what it's like to basically have nothing and doing what you feel is necessary to survive.

Lee: Why didn't you call me? I could've helped you.
Taeyun: Ah Lee, always trying to save the day. Once a leader always a leader.

Lee frowns.

Taeyun: You can't protect us forever.
Lee: I can but you won't let me.
Taeyun: I'm fine.
Lee: You're not fine. You were a songwriter, composer, main vocalist and visual. Now you serve people pretzels and lemonade.

I glance over at Lee.

Lee: No disrespect to the people who do that, money is money. But you Park Taeyun are an idol! Not a damn pretzel baker.

Taeyun scoffs.

Taeyun: You think I don't know that? If news of gambling habits would've got out dispatch would've been all over my ass. The group would have suffered!

Now isn't the time to be a counselor but I'm finally getting the answers I wanted to know.

Lee: You don't know that!
Taeyun: But I do. Plenty of idols' lives and careers have been destroyed over human mistakes. Some are even rumors!

That's true.

Lee: Why didn't you tell me?
Taeyun: I'm your hyung! I should be a role model but I'm not.
Lee: Even role models need help sometimes. There's not a soul alive that's perfect.

I smile, he's so sweet and compassionate. He reminds me of Shownu, I miss him. I miss them, even Changkyun's annoying ass.

Taeyun: Don't worry about me, your solo career is doing good. I'm proud of you.

Lee tries to smile but can't, he misses his group brothers.

Lee: I don't like being a solo artist, I miss being in a group. I miss waking up to you and Anthony belting out twice lyrics at the crack of dawn. I miss annoying RJ all day until he snaps at us and we laugh. I miss Jay's cooking, like really, I burn ice.

He chuckles, but it's hard to laugh along when his eyes are watery. Taehyun reaches across the table and pulls him into a hug.

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I walk into the house and it's silent. Before going into my room I decide to grab a bottle of water, that's where I messed up at.

Changkyun sits at the table tugging at his hair. Once he sees me he stands up and engulfs me into a hug.

He apologizes over and over and I sigh.

Me: I'm sorry for slapping you.
Changkyun: I deserved it.
Me: I know.

He smiles but it doesn't reach his face.

Changkyun: I have something to tell you.

Uh oh.

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so i was thinking about making a kpop smut/imagine book.