Screw Me Over ✔️

Carmon

What's up folks?!

Wasn't that a sweet moment? I love seeing the girls get together to help each other!

Carmon seems like she's got something to hide, huh? What do you think?

Well, we might find out what that thing is because it's Carmon's turn in the spotlight. It's time for Carmon to come out of hiding. (If you didn't get that...yeah never mind)

Please see the triggers that are in the summary of this story. You may find sex scene in here. If you see it, skip over it. Just saying.

Alright, y'all! That's all I have! You may continue! 💜🤫

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One thing I shouldn't do is tell these girls something. When you tell one of them something, they all have to know. They find out everything.

Literally.

They're always quick to point out someone's flaws or sins but can't focus on their own.

That bothers me so much. There is no privacy in this house.

Sometimes, I feel I need to find new friends. Some friends that do not tell everything that I do. Maybe things would be calmer. Some friends that can be a good role model for my daughter. Six years old is very young for a child to learn about sex, right? I don't think that Raina should know about any of this stuff. No, she doesn't know that this stuff is about sex, but she will before we all figure it out. She shouldn't know how to tangle up with someone like a pretzel. That's not a game.

Maybe I should just move. I am the oldest of all the girls and I'm being treated like my daughter. I am not six years old anymore. I've grown into a 23-year-old that just wants her father to be in her life...

And possibly mine as well.

Let's not forget that I'm a bad mother because I'm always out doing something. They think I'm always getting drunk and fucking around. They're possibly right on that one. That's not an everyday thing though.

What do I really do?

I'm always with Heath.

I go over to Heath's house after a night out on the town or something. That's an everyday thing.

Wait. That didn't sound any better.

Well, my point is that I shouldn't be stuck up in this house and treated like a child. Everyone has their own life to live and you don't see me trying to control their lives.

Maybe it's because my life is barely controllable by its owner.

Sitting around gets you in your feelings. Maybe that's why I'm a party starter. There's nothing wrong with going out for a drink or two...

Or five. Drinks make going out more fun in my opinion.

Although going out to clubs is fun, so is spending time with my little girl and that's why we're going to the balloon fest.

"Mommy, when are we leaving?!" Raina said as she pulled on my arm. I was trying to put on makeup so I didn't go looking a mess.

"Raina, we'll leave in about 30 minutes. I have to finish putting stuff on my face, sweetheart," I said taking my arm away from her.

"But Mommy..." Raina said as she gave me those puppy eyes. Her black hair was put in pigtails with white bows on each of them. She was also in a white shirt and overalls were over them. She was wearing new red Converse shoes that Rena gave her for Christmas. You could definitely tell that Rena dressed her. She would be in a cute little dress if I did.