Screw Me Over ✔️

Jessica

What's up, folks?! I hope you guys are doing well because this Corona is making many people panic! Please remember to STAY INSIDE! It helps tremendously! #readtogether

Anyway...

Where do you think the younger ladies of 412 went to?

Do you think Carmon and Jana will keep their promises?

Well, we are back with another chapter for Screw Me Over! Jess may be over the rollercoaster sickness. 👀

Anyway, please see the triggers that are in the summary of this book!

Alright, y'all! That's all I have! You may continue! 💜🤫
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This was what I truly needed after all of the bullshit I had been going through these past couple of months. The waves of the ocean crashing into the heated sand, the warm air with the smell of the beach seeping through my nostrils. Nope...the smell of crab and other seafoods took over and the crab shacks just surrounded this beautiful beach here in Florida.

Even though I wasn't a huge seafood person, I still enjoyed the sights and smells because they beat being back at home. I didn't know where Tiff scored this beautiful blue beach house from, but I'm glad she got it.

It was so tall and modern with bamboo shelves and marbled counters. Almost everything was white on the inside but we walked into a huge living area before we got to go upstairs. Beach decorations flowed throughout the house, but so did a positive vibe! There was a pool, a hot tub, fire place, game room, and so much more in this house! The owners even had champagne waiting for us when we got there on the first day. Thank you to Rena for being over 21.

We went all out the first night we got here. Rena brought some drinks from the Walmart around the corner and we got drunk as hell in our pajamas. We just celebrated being free from anything that's kept us locked down. Mine was definitely Jana and it just felt good to not have that weight on my shoulders in that moment. We played drunk Twister, watched a rom com, and we don't remember everything after that.

There were balconies for each room and Tiff was nice enough to let me have the master bedroom where the balcony was facing the ocean. For some reason, I think she knew I needed it to just relax and watch the motion of the ocean. Standing on this balcony didn't make me feel any better because it put me in my damn feelings.

I couldn't help but continuously ask myself why the hell I thought it would be a smart idea to propose to someone like her. Why the hell I put up with the shit she kept throwing at me? Was it really worth spending the rest of my life with someone that lusts after every busty woman she saw? Was it worth spending the rest of my life with someone who didn't love my body?

Ever seen Diary of A Mad Black Woman by Tyler Perry? Well, might as well call me the Mad Hispanic Woman and this is my diary. What about me wasn't worth appreciating besides my terrible attitude? I cook, clean, work, and put it down in the bedroom like it's the last time I'm about to have sex. I love so damn hard and this is why I'm so hard on people. That's how I love people and they take it how they want it.

No one can say I don't love Jana with all of my heart and soul. No one can say that I don't put my all in this relationship or that I don't cater to that hoe. Nobody can say that I wouldn't do any and everything for that damn woman.

She was the only one that showed me the closest thing to affection that I could get. Not even Leo showed me the kind of love that Jana did. My heart wanted to stay with her because we've been together for so long and I didn't want to start over with anyone else. This was the longest relationship I had ever been in.