Screw Me Over ✔️

Jessica

What's up, folks?! I hope you guys are doing well because this Corona is making many people panic! Please remember to STAY INSIDE! It helps tremendously! #readtogether

Anyway...

Rena's got a date! Rena's got a date! Don't you just love it when all the ladies get together and just talk for a while? Where there's no drama or anything? They just talk about life?

Well don't hold your breath because we're back with some more drama for yo mama, fam!

Well, we are back with another chapter for Screw Me Over! It's Jessica's turn to take us down the road of her childhood. Time to get down to the needy greedy that ain't so pretty, okay?

Anyway, please see the triggers that are in the summary of this story!

Alright, y'all! That's all I have! You may continue! 💜🤫
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Have you ever just sat in a quiet space by yourself and have your inner demons take over your mind? They invade your thinking space because they see they have easy access at this point. You opened the doors for them to intrude and now you're soaking in either anger or sadness.

I regretted letting those fuckers take over my thoughts. They took over my dreams, my thoughts, my feelings, and took away my need for sleep. Those thoughts turned into terrible flashbacks of my once broken life. The reasons to why I am who I am today. They revealed themselves breaking me to my core and making me do stupid shit. Punching walls, tearing up furniture, throwing things around, but the worst thing...

The worst thing was making those stupid ass tears fall from my eyes.

This was a time for me to be happy. I had my fiancée, my friends, and my cousin which was the only little family I had left. Those demons reminded me of how these were the only people that were left in my life. There was no one else in my life. If any of these people left my side, I wouldn't know what to do.

I was still breathing so there wasn't anything to complain about, right? I should have been grateful for all of that.

Not according to my demons. Attacking the shred of happiness I had left in me with the one person that destroyed my life in the first place. Trying to bite me back in the ass one good time before they ran to leave me by myself again.

Who could have seen this shit coming besides God? Sometimes, I wonder why the hell he let these damn demons come back into my life or just let them chase after me for so long just to beat the living shit out of me. It was as if he wanted to play with my emotions like I was a fucking puppet.

Sadly, he's just one person I couldn't strangle. It's just unethical. The other person just happened to be my Mama. Damn morals.

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"Rena, put the sub sandwich down and back the fuck away from the fridge!" I spoke pointed her out with a fresh bite of sandwich stuck in her mouth. Smiling at the current scene, I shook my head at her. Eventually, I couldn't help but let out a hearty laugh as she looked at me with widened eyes.

It was around two o'clock in the morning and my eyes caught Rena rummaging through the refrigerator about 12 hours after our little promise we made. We agreed on a certain diet, a food schedule, and a yoga session at the end of every day. We both weren't allowed to eat after 10 at night as well. Jana said that this was supposed to help with my anger and her eating habits.

She quickly dropped the sandwich and whatever was in her mouth just to raise her hands up slowly. As I walked into the kitchen, I took the cold sandwich and the chewed part of it off the counter to put it in the trash. She better be lucky she's my family because I wouldn't do that for anyone else besides Jana. That was nasty.