My Secret Heart

Chapter 18

Today me, Niall, and Louis were going to hang out at the park. Niall wanted it just to be him and I on a fall afternoon picnic, but I begged him to invited Louis to come along as well.

Niall was cooking some hamburgers and hotdogs on a little grill he bought today, pacifically for this occasion.

While he was cooking the hamburgers, I was chatting up a storm with Louis at the picnic table. I could feel Niall's eyes staring at us the whole time, not taking them off, but when he flip them over. I ignored it though, knowing he was just worried for my safety.

"The food is ready" Niall yelled at us. We walked over to get some food and we all went and sat down at the picnic table.

Niall took a huge bit of his hotdog.. "Mmm... This is so good!" he said talking with his mouth full. "I did a good job! I think you all owe me a thank you!" he told us taking another bite.

"Niall slow down! You don't want to choke" I told him, laughing a little.

"Oh he won't choke, that's how he always eats" Louis said laughing.

We all ate and talked. After we were done, me and Louis went for a short walk while Niall was cleaning up. He didn't say anything about us going, but I could tell he suspicious and worried.

"So how have you been all this time? We finally get some privacy to talk" Louis asked me as we were walking to a little bench for a rest stop.

"Good. And you?" I asked.

He didn't say anything for a long while and then he spoke "I have been fine" I knew he was lying. I could tell by the way he wasn't looking me in the eyes and how his emotion completely changed.

"I know you are lying. Tell me" I said stepping in front of him and walking backwards now. He stopped me, just looked at me forcing me a faint smile.

"Louis what's wrong?" I asked worriedly.

He just sat there and looked down at the ground, his eyes droopy. "I can't tell you." he said softly. Did he just say he couldn't tell me? I couldn't believe him, we were best friends we could tell each other anything!

"Louis!" I snapped. "You can tell me anything. I'm here for you! Now spit it out." I told him. He just looked at me with eyes that had misery in them. He took my hand and led me the bench.

I looked at him. He wouldn't look my in the eyes for nothing. Something was seriously up.

"Louis you can tell me anything. If it's about me I won't get mad, I'm here for you" I told him rubbing circles on his hand.

"Don't get mad at me. You want me to tell you, so I'm telling you" he cut off. "I can't stand it.. You and Niall, I break every time I see you guys together, being so happy. I wanted that to be us, but it's not. I am happy for you, yeah but it just hurts me. I don't want you to get hurt either. I have already played a part in some hurt you have had, and I feel so terrible. I will never forgive myself." He finally looked me in my eyes. "I'm sorry. I know I promised, but I didn't realize how hard this would be for me."

Then I realized I was so stupid not to think it was about the whole Niall and me then Louis junk. What he said made my heart melt it was so sweet, but why couldn't he move on to some other girl? I didn't understand.

"Louis. I'm sorry I love Niall" I told him, his face sunk and he return what I said with a "I know. You will never know what it feels like to love someone who doesn't love you back."

"I'm sorry" I whispered, and we walked back to Niall.

We were talking, about little random things we would see on our walk back. When we got almost to the grill and our picnic area, I couldn't believe what I saw!!

My eyes widened, as I was trying to figure out if I was really seeing this! NIALL?! He was kissing another girl! I couldn't believe this, my heart sank.

I looked over at Louis and he looked at me with shock as well. I felt tears fill in my eyes as once again my heart was being ripped out of my chest. I loved him, and he said he loved me, but I guess he doesn't.

My tears increased and I started running away crying. "Maggie!" Louis yelled at me. I didn't stop I kept running. I didn't want to be around anyone right now, I wanted to go and cry my eyes out once again.

NIALL'S POV:

I watched them oh so carefully, the way he made her laugh. I was jealous. I didn't like her being around him, he was too flirty and lovey with her. She was my girl, he needed to understand she is taken and that he needed to step away.

As we ate we all talked and shared some laughs. After we were done Louis and Maggie went for a walk while I cleaned everything up. I didn't like that they were going away so I couldn't see them, but I trusted Maggie.

I was packing all the food back up into the cooler, when a girl came up to me and poked my arm.

"Hey, your Niall Horan right?" she asked. She had black hair with dark eyes, her makeup was thick and her perfume was lethal, it was so strong.

"Y..yes I am" I replied. I was afraid she would start fangirling and go tell all her friends, and have a crowd of girls over here in seconds time, but she didn't.

"I really like your music" she said getting closer to me.

"Oh, well thank you." I said backing up a little. She kind of creeped me out.

Before I knew it she had me backed up to the picnic table, and then out of the blue, she started kissing me. I tried so hard to pull away but I couldn't. I had no choice but to kiss her back. I tried so hard to break the kiss without pushing her and hurting her, but I couldn't.

"Maggie!" I heard someone yell, it was Louis. I finally just pushed her to the ground not even caring if she was hurt. I looked to my left and I saw Maggie running away her hands covering her face, just like she did last night. And Louis was chasing after her.

I couldn't believe this. I promised I wouldn't let her heart get broken, by Louis. But instead I just broke it. I felt tears fill my eyes as I saw her running away, from what she saw, me kissing not her, but another girl. Not purposely, but that's what she thought.