My Secret Heart

Chapter 28

He sat down on the bed looking at the wall in front of him. I didn't know what to say I felt so bad.

I believed Louis, I believed Niall would actually do something like that to me. I was wrong. He really truely did love me.

I just sat there looking at him. I didn't know what to say. I felt terrible. I thought he was cheating and he thinks I was cheating.

"What do you want?" he asked harshly, standing up and walking over to the dresser.

"Niall.. I" started to get out of my mouth, but he cut me off.

"Save it. I don't want to hear it" he raved not making any eye contact.

"Niall please, just let me explain." I said softly.

"Explain what? That I was gone for a week, and you cheated on me? You moved on? You didn't really love me? You are a player?" he threw words at me that made me feel horrible. I did love him. Maybe I didn't want to admit it, but I did love him, there was no doubt about it.

I wanted to clear this up and tell him what all had happened. But the words he just spoke to me, broke me inside. He thought I was a cheater, that I didn't love him.

"You're right I don't love you!" I yelled. What did I just say?! I didn't even know why I said that! I did love him! I guess I just got mad at him.

He looked at me as a tear ran down his face. "I wasted my time on you! You broke my heart!" he yelled at me.

"I broke you heart?! Do you even relies how many times these last three months I have cried over getting hurt? All from you?!" I yelled at him as I clenched my fist in anger. Tears started flooding down my face.

He started walking quickly to me with anger filled in his eyes. He backed me up to the wall behind me, and took my wrists bringing them up towards my head pressing them hard against the wall.

"Ni..Niall" I said through my tears. He clenched my wrists tightly making them burn with pain. "Niall...Your hurting me" I managed to get out.

But he didn't budge to move. His eye stared hard into mine. I didn't know what to expect to happen next. I struggled trying to get out of his tight grip, but I failed.

"I love you" he said softly as his lips came crashing onto mine. I fought to try to pull away but I had no chance.

After awhile I realized I did still love him, even when I was mad. Even when we had our struggles, and I just wanted to give up and run away, I still loved him.

I kissed him back softly and he finally pulled away after a while. I looked into those beautiful blue eyes I fell in love with at first sight, and gave him a confused look.

"I love you Maggie. You might love Louis now, but I don't know if I will ever be able to get over you" he said as a tear run down his cheek.

"Will you please listen to me now?" I said harshly.

"I don't want to here it. You moved on. You don't love me anymore." he unruffled, but I could tell he had jealousy filling him whole.

"Maybe you would understand if you would just shut up and listen for once!" I said pushing him out of my way and walking out the door.

I was done with him. If he didn't want to listen to me then it was his loss. I was willing to explain and fix things. It's all it took was for him to listen, but no. He is too stubborn and thinks he knows it all. I wasn't even going to keep trying. But then I felt his wrist grab mine and pull me back into his room.

"Niall let go of me!" I yelled annoyed as I ripped my wrists from his grip. "You don't want to listen to me. I give up!" I yelled as I headed for the door again. But he only swung me around, grabbing my face lightly and pressing his lips against mine. He pulled away and looked me in the eyes "I'm sorry please tell me what you need to explain." he said.

I looked at him for a second then sighed, sitting down on the edge of his bed. "Louis" I breathed.

"Louis?! Wait Louis what?!" he said hotly.

"Would you shut up for once and listen! Dang Niall!" I was starting to get frustrated with him. "Louis had told me Tracey was your ex." he opened his mouth to speak but I butted in quickly to shut him up. "Before you say one word, let me finish!" I said looking at him seriously.

"So I believed him. I was broken thinking you were going away to spend a week, a week! With your ex. Over the time you were gone with your ex" I said using air quotes, "Me and Louis got close in more of a relationship wise. He tricked me. I am sorry I believed him. I'm sorry I hurt you so badly." I said letting out a little sigh. I closed my eyes tightly and flashed them open to see Niall's jaw half way to the ground.

He walked over to the right side of the bed and sat down and ran his hands through his blonde hair. "I..I can't believe Louis would do something like that to me, to you, to us" he said baffled, looking at his feet.

I moved over next to him and placed my hand on his thigh. We just sat there for a while as I just rubbed his leg lightly, till he grabbed my hand and turned his body slightly, his eyes looking into mine. "Tell me the truth Maggie, is it me you love or him?" I looked at his worried face as I thought about it for a second.

I really did love Niall. But something over the last couple of days with Louis made me think maybe I loved him as well. Maybe even more?

"I love Louis" I murmured. His face sank as he looked down at our hands and started rubbing little circles on the top of my hand. "But only as a friend" he looked up and me his eyes confused but with love and excitement in them. "I only truly love you Niall" I said looking deep into eyes, blood shot but still the most gorgeous blue I have ever seen.

A smile crept onto his face, tugging on each side of his lips. His face sprung with life as he lifted me off the bed hugging me tightly, then sitting my feet to the floor.

His warm smile still spread wide across his face and his eyes still staring into mine. Then his expression became serious. "I love you Maggie" he spoke gently.

"Even when I mess up, and hurt you?" I asked.

"Even when we hurt each other. Your my world, I love you."

"Forever and always?"

He took my face gently in his hands and kissed me softly "Forever and always"