My Secret Heart

Chapter 19

I kept on running. I couldn't believe this. My life was all starting to fall apart. Ever sense Louis brought the boys here, I have cried my eyes out and gotten my heart broken more than ever.

I didn't know what to expect next. I decided: why even stay and live this miserable life here, when I could just run miles away from, and not come back. I wouldn't' have to tell anybody where I would be going. My mom and dad never kept in touch with me anyway, they wouldn't even know.

I didn't know where I would go, but the farthest my feet could take me.

Louis was still chasing me, I could hear his heavy breathing behind me fading further away as I kept on running. Running, for the third time this month. Running from heart ache. I couldn't take this anymore. As soon as I knew I had lost Louis in the distance, I stopped by a tree, and slid down it.

People were walking by slowly, whispering things to their friends about me, but I didn't care. I just wanted to sit here and figure things out, figure out where I was going.

I could heard, a oh so familiar voice coming near me when I looked up I saw someone running in my direction. I squinted through my tears and realized it was Louis.

I jumped up and started running again but didn't get far before I was yanked into someone's strong arms.

"Louis put me down!!!! LOUIS!!" I started throwing a tantrum. I was screaming through my tears trying to get out of his grip, but he was too strong.

I finally gave up and he carried me over to some trees where no one was.

"Shh..Baby..It's ok" he told me trying to comfort me. I just kept screaming and letting my tears flow hard. I couldn't just calm. He had no idea how I was feeling, how I couldn't take anymore of all of this drama and heart break!

After about a hour I was running out of energy, I had no choice but to control my emotions.

"Baby.. I'm so sorry. You didn't deserve that. You are too lovely to be being cheated on" he told me. I started to cry again. I had been crying so much I was hyper ventilating and I could barely breathe.

"I'm tired of getting crushed Louis! I'm running away!" I told him.

"What are you talking about?!" he pulled me out of chest and looked at me in shock. "I am not letting you run away! Running away is not how you solve your problems Ducky! And you know that! I can help you! Please.. Please just let me help you.." he brought me into a hug again.

I had heard plenty of people tell me they could help me and wouldn't let my heart get broken, but so many people let me down.

Maybe running away wasn't going to solve my problems, but maybe I didn't want them to me fixed. Maybe I wanted to start a new drama free life on my own.

I loved Louis and it would be hard for me to just leave him behind but I had too, he was part of my reason I was leaving.

I loved Niall a bunch, but seeing him there kissing that other girl made me feel hopeless and empty, I had to drop and forget him.

Louis left me sitting there alone, while he went to get me some water.

"Maggie! Maggie" I heard someone yelling not too far away. I looked around and there I saw a blonde headed Irish boy running to me. I got up and started running away, till I was swung around by a tight grip on my wrist.

"Maggie" he was breathing heavy.

"Look I don't want to hear it!" I told him looking into his eyes, they were swollen from crying.

"I'm sorry! It.." he said but I just cut him off.

"You played me!" I yelled at him with teary eyes. He cut me off harshly

"Please! Just listen to me!" I looked at him for a while then crossed my arms.

"Fine go on" I told him.

"She was a fan and she just pushed herself to me, I tried to break away but I couldn't! I would never cheat on you, ever! Please understand" he took my hand, but I just slapped it away.

"I don't buy it! Even if that was true you could have pulled away if you wanted it!" I said walking away.

"I didn't want to hurt her by pushing her away!" he said jogging toward me.

"Exactly! If you really loved me, you wouldn't have cared if you hurt her or not, she was kissing you!" I said walking away again.

"Maggie wait!" he yelled to me.

"Just leave me alone Niall!" I yelled at him walking the way Louis had went.

NEXT DAY:

I was ready to go. I hadn't told Louis, that I was really leaving. I was just going to go and hope I find somewhere where I can fix my heart. I need time and space, I needed a miracle.

As I was about to walk out the door, I looked one last time at the picture frame I had sitting up on the fire place mantle. It was me and Niall, the night we were looking up at the stars, the night he told me he loved me.

Tears started filling my eyes as all the memories we had together cluttered my mind. I was leaving, leaving him. After all, it was what he wanted anyway. He wanted some other girl, not me.

My heart throbbed at the thought of me not seeing him again. How everything we had was gone. How I believed he loved me and would keep his promise not to let my heart break. I fell too hard, and I let my heart get broken another time.

A tear slid down my cheek as I went and picked it up. I opened the back of the frame and took the picture out. I tore the picture straight down the middle into two pieces. I looked at it and realized that's how my heart looked, it was in two pieces.

I grabbed one side, of the raggedly tore picture, and placed it in my pocket and left for a new beginning.