Release | KNJ

Chapter 24- Goodbye

Chapter 24

Your heart feels like it's beating a million miles per minute as you wait for Seokjin to open the door. This was going to be so difficult, you could already feel your eyes brimming with tears. "It will be okay" you mumble right as the door swings open, revealing a casual but very attractive Seokjin.

He was in gray sweats and a plain white shirt, his hair a bit messy and his glasses falling off his nose. He smiles down at you before pushing the door open for you to enter.

"You look beautiful as always" he smiles kissing your cheek before you enter his home "Sorry I'm a mess, long day at work. I ordered us some take out, sorry I didn't cook I'm just so exhausted"

You place your hand on his chest to stop him from continuing, he stops and looks down at your somber eyes "Stop apologizing, and you don't look a mess you actually look even more handsome than usual" he chuckles and you sigh, he takes a deep breath as well and shuts the door.

"Let's eat before we get into everything"

You raise a brow at him and he weakly smiles "Jungkook May have mentioned you were gone all day and night...when he called me to see if you were here I kind of figured that you were with Namjoon..." he takes another deep breath "and by the look on your face I'm guessing you may have made a decision"

A lone tear falls from your eye as you look down at your feet, Jin sighs again before walking over and placing both his hands on your shoulders. You cry a little more at his touch, he doesn't say anything just gently pulls you into his chest and holds you close.

"I'm so sorry"

You choke out, he gently rubs your back and kisses your forehead "It's okay y/n" he mumbles into your hair. You both take a moment before collecting yourselves, Jin weakly smiles down at you before grabbing at your hand and pulling you towards his living room.

"Come on and eat with me"

He smiles back at you before letting go of your hand and taking a seat on his couch. You sniff back a few more tears and sit next to him, you had no appetite at the moment. You just felt sick and numb, how can Seokjin be so relaxed about this situation. You can see he's hurt just by looking at him but still he's keeping it together.

He sighs and sits back, letting his head fall back into the cushions. "Okay let's do this then, seeing as you aren't going to eat" he half smiles when he turns his head to get another glimpse at you.

"Are you okay?"

He chuckles before rolling his head back and looking up at the ceiling "Would you be, If you were in my position?" You frown and he sighs again "Sorry, I didn't mean to be an asshole I'm just..." he sighs again before sitting up and running his fingers through his hair, he really was gorgeous.

"I guess I'm just pissed off at myself"

You cock your head to the side and furrow your brows at him "Why? I'm the asshole in this situation not you" he nods a bit shooting you a teasing smile "Yeah you are" you frown and he sighs once more.

"Unfortunately for you though, I can't stay mad at you for not choosing me."

You feel so confused by his words, he should hate you. He should be yelling at you and throwing you out of his house right about now maybe even calling you some crud names. But he doesn't.

"I'm mad at myself because I knew this was going to happen and yet I still invested myself in you"

"You knew? How?"

He takes a breath and brushes a strand of hair away from your face, gently placing it behind your ear.

"Beautiful did you forget that you vented to me about this dude? I knew your feelings for him when we first started hanging out. But I just figured I might stand a chance before we spent a whole month together and everything was perfect...I felt like maybe I was healing you...helping you forget but of course he showed up again"

You frown and he smiles "I should of known then, he's got years on me but I was holding out on the off chance that you'd actual give us a chance"

Another tear slips down your cheek and he frowns, wiping it away with his thumb. "Can you stop being so perfect? I'm breaking up with you and your still such a gentleman, god I'm such an asshole!"

He chuckles and you cry a little more "Ah y/n please don't cry, I mean don't get me wrong it does make me feel better seeing that you do care about me but I don't want to see you crying over something that is suppose to make you happy...he makes you happy right?"

You nod your head yes, Namjoon's cute face appearing in your mind. He did make you happy but so did Jin...this was all so confusing. But you loved Namjoon in ways you couldn't love Jin.

"Can't you just yell at me or something? Stop being so nice" you huff wiping your own tears away, he smiles softly as he leans back "What do you want me to say? You slut? I can't do that I know you like it"

This makes you laugh and he smiles "You're a jerk" you say with a teasing smile "This isn't goodbye though okay? I can't just not be around you I'll miss you too much"

He shakes his head and sits up, his legs touching yours now "I'm sorry beautiful but it's going to have to end here, there is no way I can be friends with you without trying to steal you back" you frown as he cups yours face "I understand" you whisper feeling your tears burning once more.

"I love you so much y/n...and tell that idiot he better treat you right and not fuck anything up because I will take you away from him"

You smile as he rests his forehead against yours "I mean it" he whisper, you open your eyes and look at him "I love you to Jin"

His breathing gets unsteady as he pulls back, his eyes glossier than before. You can tell he's close to losing this built up mask he had been fronting the whole time.

"I guess I better go"

You mumble getting to your feet, he looks away and nods "Yeah I guess so" you blink back a few fresh tears as you slowly make your way to the front door. This was the hardest goodbye you've ever experienced, but you had to do it. You couldn't lead Seokjin on anymore, he deserved far better than you.

You glance back one last time and feel your heart sink, seokjin's back is to you and you can see his shoulders gently shake as he lets out his emotions. Feeling yourself about to break you quickly close to door and run to your car.

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😢 I love Jin