I think about how Augustus would feel. Ethan was so beautiful and innocent. Yet, Gus didn't get to hold him in his arms and I felt guilty about that. Augustus, of all people, deserves happiness and relief. He was - is - so amazing. He didn't deserve what he got. He deserved more numbers, but I'm grateful for what we got. I can almost imagine him here next to me-
"Hazel Grace," a voice said next to me. I looked to the left. Oh God. Augustus Ethan Waters.
"Gus..." I whispered. He smirked and took my hand.
"Cold," he muttered.
"Not cold so much as underoxygenated," I said quietly. My hands shook. I smiled weakly which brought a fair smile from Augustus.
"I love it when you talk medical to me," he replied, barely audible. He leaned forward and I met him half way.
Our lips met with the force of a train speeding at full power. I was so desperate for him and I missed him so much. It felt so good to have him again. He gasped and pulled me closer. I closed my eyes and melted into him. Into the kiss. I smiled and I could tell he was smiling too. I tried to contain myself, but I, of course, could not. I tangled my fingers in his hair. He grinned even wider. I was encouraged and kissed him harder. He returned the action gladly. He grabbed my knee.
Suddenly, he was gone.
"Augustus?" I said, panicked. "Where are you? What happened?" I looked uselessly around the room. Nothing. No one. I was terrified. My heart felt like they had turned into my dead lungs. I could barely breathe.
Was I really that naive to think that he was back alive? Really? I though I was better than that. There was no way that I was like that. Was I that desperate? I knew the answer to that question. Yes. I wanted him that badly. I sighed and leaned back on my bed. Without warning, I was crying.
I was crying for Gus and Ethan. I was crying for Isaac. I was crying for my poor parents. Most of all, I was crying for myself.
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Heyyyyyy sorry I haven't updated in such a long time. I just moved into my new house in California. We've been crazy busy and I've tried to update but my phone wouldn't save what I had so......... Um yeah that really sucks. I'll update everything ASAP. Thanks for sticking with me, y'all. I love you all.
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The Fault In Our Stars Fanfiction: My Second Little Infinity
FanfictionAugustus is gone. But Hazel Grace Lancaster isn't done yet. She still has to live her life. Even though her true love is gone, she's still here. She still has Isaac, her parents, and even though she may not know it, Support Group. Her life is more d...
