The Fault In Our Stars Fanfiction: My Second Little Infinity

Chapter 1

It was the day after I read Gus's final letter to me. I'd woken up, feeling like I was going to throw up. My lungs felt like the cancer was going to eat them up. I was short of breath-well, more than usual. I hooked myself up to Philip and went into the bathroom. I splashed water on my face and went to the bathroom. Then, the nausea passed without a trace. My lungs went back to its' normal, horrible selves. I splashed more water on my face and looked at myself in the mirror.

"Hazel?" Mom called from outside. "Are you in there? Are you okay?" I took a deep breath.

"I'm fine. I'll be out in a second." I adjusted my cannula and unlocked the door. I wanted to tell her, but she spoke before I could.

"Are you okay, Hazel? Really okay?" Emotion swelled painfully in my chest. She had gone very close to our little "Okay? Okay." thing.

"I felt a little nauseous. I'm all good now," I replied.

"Are you sick?" She put her hand to my forehead. "Your temperature is okay. Do you wanna go to the doctor?"

"No. I want to see if it'll pass."

She smiled understandingly and kissed me on the forehead. "Okay, honey. Whatever you want." I watched her leave to go make breakfast. I glanced at Bluie. He seemed to urge, Do it. Go on.

"Okay, Bluie," I said aloud. "I'll go."

"As I drove to Walmart after breakfast, I kept thinking about Augustus. Stuff like: What would he think of this? What if it's true? What would he do if it's true? And as I pulled into a parking spot, I was a jumble of mixed emotions. Fear, surprise, dread, and most of all, numbness.

I walked the isles. I got what I wanted. I checked out. The bag in my hand felt heavy.

"Mom, Dad! I'm home!" I announced. I ran to my room as fast as I could without killing myself, then to the bathroom. I locked the door and pulled out the box. I quickly skimmed over the instructions. My hands shook as I pulled it out. I closed my eyes until I knew it was done. I sucked in my breath, then opened my eyes.

A small plus sign was on the stick.

I curse. My hands shook and my lungs felt like the crappiest crap in all of Craptopia. All I could think was ohmyGodohmyGodohmyGodohmyGodohmyGodohmyGodohmyGod crapcrapcrapcrapcrap thisishappening.

"What're you doing in there, Hazel? Can I come in?" Deja vu. I found myself on my knees, so I crawled to the door. I unlocked it. She gave my a quick sweep with her eyes. She dropped down next to me.

"Oh, baby," Mom whispered. The emotion in her eyes was unfathomable.

"It's Augustus," I whispered so even I could barely hear myself

Then, I broke into tears.

Loud, lung-straining, heart-breaking sobs.

I fell into my mother's arms and cried myself back to sleep.