You're it (SEQUEL OUT)

Chapter 25- someday.

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"Riles?" His eyes pierce through me, checking I'm real. He places his coffee cup down and his bag. "You're- what's going on? Why are you here?"

I just step forward into his arms, letting myself wrap around him and just breathe. I just breathe him in and let him hold me too, one of his hands wrapped at the back of my neck.

"I'm sorry." I mumble. "I'm so sorry for being so stubborn."

"No, I'm sorry." Luke's voice is muffled, still buried in my hair.  "I should've told you, I was just so wrapped up with us that I hoped it would go away. I just wanted time." 

I pull away slightly, but still let myself linger in his arms. Unable to pull away. Unable to let go just yet. 

"Well, that wasn't smart." I tease, but my voice is thick with emotion. "Why are you still here?"

"We checked in but my dad needed to take a few calls. He's got this weird thing about planes and doesn't let us have cells on after security." He rolls his eyes.

"Well, lucky for me." I try to smile, but I know it doesn't reach my eyes. "I wish we could work this out. Stay together."

"Me too." Luke shakes his head, brushing away the dreams and thoughts. "But we have to let go. We can't wait for each other, it isn't fair."

"I would've waited." I reply. It's the truth- at this moment, I'd wait years if it meant he could stay five more minutes. I lean back into him again, tightening my grip. I love you. I love you. 

"I know." He gives a small sigh. "I know I would too but it's not living Riles. Not really. You need to be free to try things and be with anyone you want. You need to experience it all and I can't be there."

"It's not fair." I say, crossing my arms. "I find someone, finally, who I really want to let in. Who understands. And you have to leave." I wipe my cheek, catching a runaway tear. Luke frowns and reaches over for it too, his thumb resting against my cheek.

"Life is unfair." He rolls his eyes again. "My dad always says that. I guess it's true, especially for us."

"You wrote me a letter?" 

"It just explains everything." He says. "And who knows, I mean maybe someday we'll make it back to each other and everything will work out but I don't know and I-"

I shake my head, trying to smile a little to calm him down as he stops, sighing. I spot his dad re-entering the building, tucking his phone in his jacket. 

"You need to go." I say quietly and he turns, seeing his dad. He sighs and hugs me again, almost lifting me up with the strength of it.

We don't make a huge fuss. We don't sob or shout or beg. We just hold each other, carefully and silently. What more can we do? He's leaving no matter what. I close my eyes.

I understand what he means now-having to let go. If you can't, how can you possibly get up every morning? How can you get through life? Right now, it feels like my heart is cracked wide open. But if I hang onto the idea of him coming back it'll hurt more than him leaving. I'll wait everyday for someone who isn't coming back- not for a long time anyway.

But it doesn't mean I'll love him any less. It doesn't mean that what we had, no matter how brief, doesn't become any less real or hurt any less to lose. 

Luke's father coughs behind us, closer than before and I know I'm holding them up. I break away slightly as he turns away from us again.

Luke rolls his eyes at his father before leaning forward, his hands against my face. He smiles, his eyes sparkling slightly as he leans down and kisses me. I kiss him back, despite the fact everyone can see us and weave my hands into his shirt, clinging to him. He's gentle and sweet, unlike our other kisses. Something to remember. 

"I love you." He says quietly, privately, as he pulls away, his head resting gently against my own. 

"I love you too" I reply and I hear his breath hitch slightly. He squeezes my hand gently, the creases of his fingers fitting perfectly into mine.

He leaves. His hand lets go of mine. He steps away and my heart aches already, feeling as if that piece of myself is already gone. It's awful. The whole thing is just unbearable and if he doesn't walk away faster, I'm going to collapse in a sodden mess. 

He turns around before he disappears, his two fingers against his head as he mocks salutes me a goodbye, his lips stretching into a smile. 

"S'long Fray. Someday." He calls. 

I smile then, calling after him. "S'long Wild."

Then he's gone.Really gone. 

I wander back to the entrance and find Ashley and Ryan curled up together against a wall. They both stand up and watch me carefully. I will myself to save it- to save the tears and the pain i'm feeling inside. They don't need the burden of looking after me. 

We drive home, in silence. An awkward silence where nobody knows what to say. I step out of the car, my body heavy. Ashley climbs out and hugs me.

"Call me?" She asks and I nod. They drive away and I enter the house, the all-so famliar smell making tears rise in me. One dribbles down my cheek and I carefully wipe it with my sleeve.

Darren appears at the door and leans on it.

"How are you? Luke..?" He asks. I smile a little, trying my best to put on a brave face. "It's okay if you want to cry. I'm here for you. Emma too."

I just nod and point up the stairs, slowly climbing up. I reach my room and throw most of my clothes off, keeping on a teeshirt. Before I climb into bed, I fish out Luke's tee which I still have.

I cuddle up with it, trying to sleep. Before long, I'm slowly drifting off.

I wake with a start, Luke's words ringing in my head as tears start to come down my cheeks and I try to make them stop.

I silently cry, missing him already. Yes- I have to let go. But I love him. And I feel like something's missing inside of me.

I hold my necklace and sit up, watching the stars.

Someday.

please, I think. Someday.

--------------------------------------AN

Hey y'all!

ONE CHAPTER AND AN EPILOUGE. Yeeeeeet.

This was re edited a bit lmao. Airport chase was a tad dramatic.

enjoy !

J x

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