Not Only in My Dreams

Chapter 23

Y/N POV

I followed Rosalie into her house so I could speak to the head of the house. I see Esme standing next to Carlisle by the kitchen island. "Esme, I apologize for being so rude earlier. I was frightened and unaware of my surroundings. I have no recollection of my human life. That does not excuse my rudeness towards you or your family. I hope you forgive me." I said with my eyes towards the floor.

"It's okay dear. I understand why you reacted the way you did," she says softly with a small reassuring smile. I nod my head towards her and look to see Rosalie still close by but keeping her distance.

"Could I speak to Carlisle, alone, please?" I ask suddenly not so ashamed.

"Yes, of course. We can talk up in my office." Carlisle leads me up the stairs as I give a final wave to Esme and Rosalie.

I catch Rosalie looking dejected towards Esme and Esme trying to console her daughter without giving anything away. I wonder what is up with Rosalie. Is she upset because she feels she needs to look after me because I am a newborn with no memories and I only trust her? I can't tell.

Once we reach Carlisle's office he shuts the door and offers for me to sit in the chair across from his desk. "Thank you for speaking with me," I say politely. "I had a few questions that I didn't want to bother Rosalie with and the head of the house seemed more deemed to answer."

"Go right ahead Y/N, ask away," he says with a soft smile from behind his desk.

"Rosalie told me about what happened to my family, so I assumed I had a house? I'd like to know the location of the house so I can head there after this."

"Yes. You did have a house." he paused writing down the address I assume. "I will drive you there myself if you wish, but just know there is always a place for you here now. You may not remember, but just eight days ago you were a part of this family just as Alice or Rosalie or any of my other children are."

"Oh, I don't think that is a good idea. Rosalie already seems pretty dejected that she has to put up with me. I wouldn't want to make it a full-time job for her." I say with a sad smile. "On that note, could you explain to me why I have this strange pull towards her? She is the only person I fully trust and I think that may have something to do with it."

"Ah, I believe that question you should ask Rosalie yourself," he says, "you two were close before the incident."

"I just can't remember anything from my human life. I think it will take some time to adjust to everything and get to know everyone again." I say as I go to stand up, Carlisle nods with a helpful smile getting up as well so he can presumably take me home.

"Y/N, one last thing. I would like to speak with you about some interesting things that happened when you woke up. We can meet some other time, possibly when you get out of school and I am back from work in a few days." I pause with a questioning look. "Oh, its nothing to worry about I am just curious. Rosalie informed me, as I suspected, that you have as much control on your thirst as a 100-year-old vampire so, you have school tomorrow. I will call the school and inform them you had an accident which resulted in a concussion so if you have any issues you can use that as an excuse. Also, my children will be keeping an eye on you to make sure nothing happens"

"Thank you, but could you ask Alice to be the one to follow me if one has to be by my side all the time? And Rosalie gave me my phone back, I will call you in a few days to meet with you again."

Carlisle drove me home and I have since been wondering about my house all night, looking at old pictures on my walls, and preparing to face the world at school the next day. No sleep for the undead I guess.

Carlise's POV

I pull into the garage and head into the house. Esme and Rosalie must have been waiting on me to arrive back home. "Hello." I say with a small smile.

"What do you think Carlisle? Is she okay? Will she ever remember me?" Rosalie asked me looking so hopeful but filled with pain.

"She had a traumatic experience before her transition which most likely cause the lapse in memory. She also has extraordinary restraint when it comes to blood," I pause to think before I continue one with my next words carefully. "However, I doubt that is the end of her abilities. As to answer your question, she isn't the same. May never be the same again, but there is hope for you two still. Once the new born aura wears off, her senses will become clearer, less clustered with her new senses." I tried to reassure her. Out of everyone in this household Rosalie deserves to be with her mate.

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Y/N POV

With this new immortal life I have been gifted or cursed with, I haven't decided yet, and I still need to go to high school. I can't imagine how the Cullen children feel. I saw the caps in the picture frame. they must have lived in a hundred different towns and had to go to high school a hindered times through. That is one thing I am not looking forward to I think, as I gather my belongings to head to school. I had gotten dressed for school around 3 am out of pure boredom.

As I drive to school, I recollect how looking at pictures and home videos all night had done nothing to jog my memory. I had a happy life from what I could tell and I am content in knowing that.