Not Only in My Dreams

Chapter 25

Y/N's POV

I stare into her eyes hoping she will say yes. I have so many things I need to talk to her about. This pull is getting so strong, and rejection or not, I can't wait any longer to ask her. I don't know why this pull never stood out to me more than it does now. I don't even notice the strong sense of high school odors. All I sense is her. She hasn't said anything yet. It looks like she is searching my eyes for something. One more deep breath. "Rosalie?"

"Huh?" She seems to be pulled from her daze. "Oh yes, of course, Y/N." Rosalie drops her hands back to her side like she was too timid to touch me any more. I miss the contact immediately. "Would you like to go to my house? It's a little more private than your house." she offers.

"That would be great. Carlisle wanted to talk to me anyway. Um should I just meet you there or would you like a ride?" I offer, not sure if she would rather drive separate.

"I'll ride with you if you're offering a ride." she gives me a soft smile as she closes her locker door.

"Okay, I uh parked this way." I start to walk towards the parking lot, suddenly extremely nervous. I give a soft wave to Jasper and he nods back seeming to understand that Rosalie and I are leaving to go talk.  If my heart was still beating it would be pounding against my rib cage. I still feel the sensation of everything dropping and my face starts to feel warmer. Although I know that's impossible. 

The drive to her house is a comfortable silence. She offers me directions to her place just as a friendly reminder which I appreciate and give her a small smile in return. We finally pull up to her house and I park off to the side. 

"Would you like to go talk up in my room or would the living room be more comfortable for you?" Rosalie asks me gently as she walks up the step. 

"Your room would be fine, Rosalie," I say softly. "Thank you for considering my comfort."

"Always." 

We make our way through the house and up to Rosalie's room. She sits down on the side of her bed, but I continue to stand. Pacing by her bookshelf slowly. I glance and brush my fingers over the texts and music she had stored there. 

"This is a bit of deja vu for me," she says with a small chuckle. 

"Yeah?" I ask back with a smile as I pause to look over my shoulder at her. She just nods her head and plays with her fingers. I continue my pacing and looking at the contents on the shelf.

"Y/N? You said you wanted to talk?" she pushes gently. 

"Uh yeah. I have a few questions still... and you're the only one I can ask about them. No. I want to ask you. Hear it from you." I say as I stop my pacing and turn towards her. "It involves you actually."

"Okay, I'm all ears."

"I... I'm not really sure how to explain it. But ever since I turned I have been struggling with all of my new found abilities and distinguishing those intensified feelings with what is actually what I feel." I pause to see if she is still following. She doesn't look completely confused but hopeful? Maybe? I can't tell. "I have noticed this um connection... no, it's more like a pull towards you actually. Whenever I see you I get this strong urge to be near you, to protect you. I noticed it as soon as I saw you when I woke up but started to really recognize it after Mike today. I am not trying to weird you out or push anything on you. I am just trying to get an understanding of what I am feeling. I don't feel it with anyone else. It's only you. Rosalie, what is this? Is there something wrong with me?"

"No. No Y/N there is absolutely nothing wrong with you," she says standing up. 

"I did try to ask Carlisle about it but he said that you should be the one to answer what it is," I say rubbing the back of my neck. "I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable."