ʙᴛꜱ ᴀᴍʙᴡ ᴏɴᴇ-ꜱʜᴏᴛꜱ, ꜱᴄᴇɴᴀʀɪᴏꜱ, ᴀɴᴅ ꜱʜᴏʀᴛ ꜱᴛᴏʀɪᴇꜱ | ʙᴛꜱ x ᴏᴄ

The one where she's acting strange pt.2 (MYG)

  Yoongi rocks back and forth on his feet, waiting right outside the bathroom door. She's been in there a while. Did that mean something good? Though, Yoongi wasn't sure what exactly would be a good result. Did her staying in there mean she wasn't...? But it could mean the opposite.... No, a positive would answer so many questions of theirs. But at the same time it would change so much. Yoongi wasn't sure he was able to handle something like that. It was like the world had decided to stand still, and he could hear his heart beat thrumming in his ears. Before he realized it, he was pacing and fidgeting. Stadium crowds didn't make him this anxious and on edge.

  He rubs his face, deciding it best to sit down in their love seat. He hadn't sat down since they'd gotten home. Firstly, Mya immediately bolted for the toilet to puke, so he had to get some water back in her system (despite her tearful plea for lemonade). It hadn't taken her long to put their recently purchased tests to use. Yoongi had completely forgotten that he still had three layers on him, including his t-shirt, black and yellow plaid shirt and denim jacket. He wasn't helping himself ventilate much. His knee bounces as he waits.

  The door swings open, and out she comes, she having shed her plaid top and tied it to her waist, showing off her blank tank top, which prominently hugged her breasts (which, to Yoongi, looked undeniably more swollen). She looks at the items in her hand and sighs, Yoongi stood up immediately. He noticed the light catch her eyes, and they gleamed with tears. He didn't need an answer just yet, he just knew he had to comfort her. His wife would need his support the most. Additionally, he hated seeing her cry, even over something minor.

  Though he had no idea just how big this was yet.

  She muttered something into his shoulder and he felt his heart falter as he tried to make sense of it. He wasn't sure if he'd heard her correctly, because his heart was racing too fast and thrumming too loud to have heard anything she said properly. She sniffed when he pulled away, gripping her shoulders gently. "What did you say?" He had to be sure.

  Her chin quivered, she wipes tears from her cheek. She meets his eyes and instantly he knew with certainty that his world would change. Her voice was distant when she'd uttered the truth again, her voice light and wispy.

  He pulled her back into him, holding her head as he squeezed her. He felt her strong grip on his back. "We're gonna be parents." She repeated tearfully.

  His perspective had definitely altered, but he wasn't sure if what he was involuntarily feeling was all that good. Of course, they were perfectly capable of caring for a baby, a child of their own. But that didn't mean he felt ready. That he wasn't scared. The world would never be the same again for them.

  It's not that Yoongi didn't want this, they just never got a chance to have an in-depth conversation about this. Earlier in his career, he and Mya had a scare once, no one else found out about it. He almost felt ashamed to be feeling similar conflicting emotions as he did then. Surely he should have grown more, matured. He was capable. He was happy but his fear seemed to drive him more.

  He felt so fucking guilty, but he wasn't going to lie to himself and especially not his wife. She didn't deserve that. He wasn't going to try to convince himself that he wasn't afraid of failure. This was another person-in-the-making, another life they were obligated to and responsible for. That was a big deal. He knows it won't be easy but that's a given. He's fearful of not being someone that child deserves in their life. He wanted so badly to be a good father - that is if he gets to be.

  There was another concern of his, making his heart race as he dwelled on it. What were the chances of the child even making it? What measures needed to be taken to ensure the baby and his wife make it safe and healthy? What about Mya? Could she handle this?
 
  "Yoongi?" She pulled him from his thoughts, having tapped his shoulder.