Meeting BTS the witches curse

Making the best even if it isn't !?

Even if life doesn't go your way you always have something to live for maybe it isn't the best but making the best of every situation is what I was always taught. I miss my mom a whole lot i think often about her since I've arrived in Korea. After Jungkook apologized I felt a bit better about things but in my own way I still felt upset about it. As I was walking I ran into a certain someone i was still in my own thoughts yet I didn't even realize who it was. Of course it was our loving bunny he smiled and walked past me. He knew I wanted to be mad even though I couldn't so in a way it was his way of giving that to me. Jeez I sighed and went down the steps and yet old bunny boy never left my thoughts. I still wanted to be a positive person even through this was  hell, but one thing I was sure of I wouldn't lose them ever. Even though I was having a hard time with my weird unnaturally non human ass, I was me. and still needed that hope. This was my plan I needed to find a way to control the monster in me and I seemed somewhat okay with all of them. I feel at times I'm losing myself, but I can do this. I made my way to the kitchen as always jin standing there in the fridge. "So you hungry for blood or a whole meal? "I said with a bit of sass in my tone. i wouldn't know sweetheart what are you willing o give a good meal or a snack? The sass there was a bit unusual for jin to even have yet something about his whole demeanor changed with in a second of my crude attitude. I always wondered if I could really get you thinking for a good while he spoke softly yet so witty it confused me so much. Baffled as I was I noticed a small smile on his face and a few short seconds a small laugh came out. jin can I ask you something? this question was about to change everything. i dearly hope I won't change how they feel or how they view me. was this the witchy side of me or just me. as I was about to say something response to my question jin had walked over to me and hugged me so tight no need to ask i already heard your cry for help i leaned in and the tears of sadness and despair left my eyes like a rain drop in a thunderstorm they  kept coming nothing changed it. the question replayed in my head so many times yet i could never openly say it because i knew what decision they would already decide. the question was if i kill myself now would all this and your pain fade like the vast memory of me ................. The others came down the steps into the kitchen and looked at me with such remorse and sadness. they all  then spoke in unison how could you even begin to think about such things. my eyes watered  even more thinking i could feel such a way it was all because i wanted to protect them i wanted to make sure they were safe yet i wanted to change this damned future i was not letting happen we were not going to die and this was my plan to beat the impossible problem and find a solution the blood shed will happen no more and this is where all evil ended at least in my head and somewhat safe thoughts except they could hear everything that i just spoke. the worst was yet to come and I knew this yet I had to make the best even if it wasn't. Nice nerdy king author speech now can we really get to sleep I'm exhausted. Yoongi never surprised me but this man could sleep for days like good lord the mans like the human version of a cat. I mean vampire cat. we all agreed to head to bed I was a bit nervous because I didn't really wanna sleep my mind raced for an answer to find a solution and yet nothing  I'm sure  my great idea will come soon the more I thought though the easier my eyelids felt like a ton of bricks closing and closing until the blackness of empty abyss  its just a make the best out of the situation and that's all we could do at this moment.............