Until I met him. // J.M.B

~twenty two~

(Last chapter)

Joeys funeral finally came. I didn't go I can't see Joey I'm and emotion wreck and I just can't go.

I've been staying in joeys room since the hospital that night. I just have to it reminds me of him and smells like him.

It's so hard to live life without thinking of him.

I'm not even gonna go visit his grave I just can't I know I promised Joey I will live my life but I can't I just wanna die too I can't handle this anymore.

I'll never be able to do anything again.

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A month has past since joeys death. And I'm ready I'm ready to live life without him I know he's always gonna be with me no matter what but I'm ready.

I'm ready to go back to school it's gonna be hard but I'm ready to make new friends and face different people.

In the future at Least I can tell people about Joey tell them how good he was about me and his love about his life his personality just everything about him.

Today I'm going to visit his grave and talk to him I'm finally ready.

When I get to his grave I bring him a rose. I place it on his grave then stand in front of it.

"Hey love it's been hard this past month I haven't been the same I'm ready to live life like i promised I won't ever forget about you and how you changed my life you did Joey, I was so scared of actual life and I didn't like life I hated so much my life was horrible I never was happy I showed fake smiles everyday and couldn't handle nothing,

Until I met you.

Everything was different I shows real smiles every second. My life changed I was happy for once my life started getting better and better. Every moment with you was the best part of my life. I love you Joey and I always will I'll never stop. I love you and thank you, thank you for everything Joey Birlem.

It really was,

Until I met you.

Everything changed.