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DEUTERONOMY 30:9 "Then the LORD your God will prosper you abundantly in all the work of your hand, in the offspring of your body and in the offspring of your cattle and in the produce of your ground, for the LORD will again rejoice over you for good, just as He rejoiced over your fathers
Chapter 19: Fear
I WAS DIAGNOSE WITH A SERIES OF PHOBIA that's the truth I was hiding ng umuwi ako sa USA at hindi alam nila daddy at kuya ang totoong nangyari sa akin I always woke up at night dreaming of that nightmare I end up crying and devastated, until naglakas loob akong magpadoctor and she recommend me in one of US best psychiatrist. I was undergone a series of test until she told me and confirmed me that I have phobias yes with s marami daw siyang nakitang signs at kumpirmado iyon sa test na ginawa niya sa akin .She told me I have more or lest five phobias in me but the severe one isSpecific Phobia ito ang klase ng phobia na. nagtitrigger sa akin pagnakikita ko ang mga taong involve sa isang bangungot na trahedyang na iyon na nangyari sa akin.
Pinilit ko ang sariling umandergo ng ilang mga session ng theraphy I was in rehabilitation for 2 years hindi nga lang stay-in kundi per sessions lang tinulungna ko ang sarili ko kasi sabi ko sa sarili ko walang makakatulong sa akin kundi ang sarili ko lang I don't have any plan to tell abouth the truth to my father and brother kaya naman sobrang thankful ako ng mawala ang apat na phobias ko tanging ito lang Specific phobia ang hirap akong alisin its because real people are involved here ang sabi ng theraphies ko maaari ko lang maialis ito sa akin through exposure theraphy which is which na palagi ko iniiwasang mang-yari hindi madali ang nangyari sa akin siguro naman people will understand me why I react and do such things hindi madali ang pinag dadaanan ko. I was running away from it but it keeps on chasing me, I was moving on but there is always this called hindrances. And I know you know who am I referring this called hindrance to my moving on plan.
Iminulat ko ang mga mata kahit pa pakiramdam ko napakabigat itong buksan ramdam ko ang pagkakahiga ko sa isang malambot na bagay. Ibinaling ko ang mukha ko sa kanan isang pares ng mata ang sumalubong sa akin those deep orbs eyes is like a microscopic thing looking directly into the depth of my sould and my mind.
Nakita ko ang pag alerto niya ng iangat ko ang kamay I haved IV again. Nakita ko ang worried na mukha niya he came so fast holding my hand with that IV fluid inserted to. Kita kong inilayo niya kagaad ang isang kamay ko sa isa.
"don't pull it off baby... you need it badly" he said.
Tinulungan ko ang sariling makabangon mula pagkakahiga kita ko ang pagiisang linya ng labi niya walang imik niya akong tinulungan makaupo he scoop his freehand on my back while still holding my hand na may IV I roamed my eyes inside.
"I'm sorry for bringing you there.." aniya bumaling naman ako at binigyan siya ng isang tingin I don't want to talk about it. Gusto ko siyang tanungin kung bakit kasama ko siya but I don't want to be angry again it was not good it was not healty isa pa I felt myself so drained.
"nasaan tayo?"bagkus ay tanong ko, the olace look simple but elegant.
"we are on my barnhouse baby..."
"b-barn house?" gulantang tanong ko.
Barn house nasaan daw kami nas bahay ng baka, manok, baboy, kabayo, how dare this man bring me here, ayoko sa palacios nila pero hindi ko naman sinabing dalhin ako sa bahay ng mga hayop niya.
I hear him cuckle habang iniipit ang ilang hibla ng buhok ko sa likod ng tenga.
"barn house baby.. not that one you are thinking... I won't bring you that place I'm not that cheap baby"
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