Facade

Chapter 70

Mia's pov

I woke up from slumber with a jerk. My eyes felt puffy and my face swollen. This can only mean one thing. I cried myself to sleep. Again!. It has become such a regular occurrence that I'm used to it. I stood up from bed and made my way to the bathroom. Sighing I stared at my reflection through the bathroom mirror. Simply put, I looked like shit. Heck, I felt like shit. And as far as I'm concerned, I have every right to. I've not heard from the love of my life for a long time. I don't know whether he's alright or hurt. Or maybe dead. I don't know anything because none of us has been able to get through to him. Damian isn't worried at all. In fact he thinks it's ridiculous for me to worry. It's as if he knows something I don't. As for Karen, she's been amazing. I mean she has been trying her best to be my best friend and comfort me but I think Damian is getting to her. Oh well, that's up to them. I will keep worrying until I see and hear from Carlisle that he's alright. Sue me if you've got a problem with that.
I splashed some water on to my face. I dried my face and hands with a towel and went back to my bedroom. After a bit of thought, I decided to put makeup on. I honestly don't know why I need the mask but I have a strange feeling it'll help. I settled for mascara and lipgloss. Nothing too much. Just enough to make my face pop. My stomach grumbled loudly and I remembered I've not eaten anything since last night. Grudgingly, I forced my feet out of my room to the kitchen. As I passed by Damian's study, I heard a familiar voice. A voice that sent pleasant shivers down my spine. Could it be? He's back!.
Excitedly I shoved the door open quietly and was just in time to hear Damian mention my name. Carlisle's reply though got rid of my excitement quickly enough.
"I don't have time for her bullshit yet. I got better things to do. No offense but I feel suffocated. I just need space"
I stood there stunned. Carlisle's voice sounded so cold, so disinterested. I didn't realize I had gasped out in shock till they both turned around and noticed my presence. Damian's face full of anger and pity. Carlisle's looked shocked. I forced myself to ignored the stabs of hurt, betrayal and heartbreak I felt. I smirked at Carlisle, my eyebrows arched
"I'm sorry, I didn't know I was such a burden. You can have all the space you want. I'll never bother you again" My voice sounded cold even to my ears. My heart broke with every word but I forced myself to look unaffected. I couldn't let him see me weak. I wouldn't give him that power of knowing he destroyed me. I turned around and stalked out of the study.
Immediately I closed the door behind me, my knees buckled and I sank slowly to soft rug in my room. Sounds of pain and agony echoed through the walls. I knew they were coming from me but I was helpless to stop them. I opened the dam and let everything pour out. I emptied myself till I was but a bag of bones on the floor, took weak to do anything but lay there.

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Damian's pov

The sound of the door closing after Mia's exit penetrated through the haze of shock. Without a thought, I let my fist fly. I heard the sound of flesh connecting to flesh. I heard the satisfying crack of bones.
"You bastard! How could you?" I yelled at Carlisle, anger and frustration burning through me. I couldn't believe he would be so cold, so heartless. My heart broke and I ached. I ached for my little sister. I ached for the pain she was going through. And I hated myself. I hated myself for doing absolutely nothing to prevent it. So I decided to blame someone. And what better person to blame than the person who caused it?
I threw another punch at Carlisle. But I didn't stop. I kept punching. I couldn't see past the red haze of anger in my eyes. I couldn't think. I just poured out my anger. I heard screaming in the background then felt a pair of soft arms try to pull me away. I resisted and kept punching, venting my anger. It was  until I heard her voice. Her voice filled with pain and despair did I stop. I looked at my hands to find them covered in blood. Carlisle's body lay at my feet filled with bruises. He was unconscious. I turned to see mia shaking her head sadly at me.
"Don't do it Damian. He hurt me but I don't want him dead. Please spare him. For my sake spare him" Mia pleaded with tears running down her face. I gritted my teeth and took a look at Carlisle who was beginning to regain consciousness. I didn't feel remorseful for hurting him. In fact, I wanted to continue. But I couldn't. No matter how much I tried, I couldn't ignore her tears.
"Fix this or the next time I see you, I'll put a bullet in you" I warned him and stalked out the study.

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Carlisle's pov

I lay on the floor, a bloody mess. Pain assaulted me at every turn. My eyes were swollen shut. My lips bursted. I think I have a broken nose or is it a broken jaw? Every inch of my body hurts. I felt soft hands pull me on something soft. I heard sobbing but I was too disoriented to recognize the voice. I tried opening my swollen eyelids, wincing through the pain, but my vision was blurry. In total, I was a bloody mess. And I deserved it. I deserve every bit of pain I'm feeling. I was scared of the intensity of my feelings for Mia. Like the idiot that I am, I refused to face my feelings. Instead I chose to escape, hurting the most important person in my life. I admitted to Mia that I loved her. I knew I did. But I was scared of her becoming my weakness. If my enemies realize my feelings for Mia, they'd definitely use her to get to me. So in other to protect her, I tried to push her away. But I didn't succeed. Instead I destroyed her heart. I ruined her. She definitely hates me. I'm supposed to feel satisfied, after all that's what I wanted. I wanted her to hate me so she'll be safe. I didn't realize the gravity of what I did. Now that I've done it, I wish I hadn't. This pain is unbearable. What really hurts me is to know that Mia is probably feeling worse than I feel. And to know I was the cause of it just broke my heart. I have to fix this. I need to fix this before I lose the reason of my existence. I needed to make sure I didn't lose Mia.

Here's an update, sorry for the delay. It's going to get hotter. Keep reading!!