A Push

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Zane slides down to the floor of his room and decides to stay there for a while.
He knows Jay hadn't meant to hurt him.
But he had.

What? Come on Zane that joke was super good!

He squeezes his arms and draws his legs up to his chest, becoming a safe little ball.

Seriously, I know you're a nindroid and stuff, but you can't be that emotionless.

He was crying.
Because he was in fact, that emotionless.
He'd flicked his humor switch off a few weeks ago, deciding that he didn't feel like pretending he was human.
He was done pretending that his joy was caused by actual emotions.
He was a machine.
He's not human and nothing can change that.
The nindroid feels his tears roll over his cheeks and wipes them away.
Even these tears are fake.
A reaction to his system making him feel fake sadness.

"Hey Zane, are you okay in there?"

Nya.

He quickly wipes his face and opens his door.
"Of course, I'm fine Nya, what's up?"
"I heard crying, I thought it was you."
"Oh well. It was me. But it doesn't matter."
"What? Why shouldn't it matter?"
"Well, you know," Zane shrugs, "All my emotions are generated, they aren't real."
Nya's eyes widen and she tightly grips his cold shoulders.
"Is that really what you think?"
Zane looks into her eyes with confusion.
"It's not a thought, it's a fact. My personality isn't real. I'm not real."

At that comment Nya looked really upset, angry even.
Why?
It doesn't matter anyway.
"How can you put yourself down like that?"
Zane frowns. "What do you mean?"
"Your personality isn't generated, it's been developed by you. All that you started out with was a system that could develop feelings and personality with what choices you make!"
She was yelling by now.
"So how dare you say that it's not real! Even if you think your feelings are fake it shouldn't make you discard them! They are a part of you and so they matter! They are what make you, Zane! A member of our team. Of our family! So don't you dare throw yourself away like that!"
She was crying.
"Please, it doesn't matter if you're a nindroid or not, we love you, we always have, and always will."

Nya held him and they cried together.
He was here, being held by her.
Crying.
Crying and caring and being himself.
"Thanks."




"Alright what do you call fake spaghetti?" Jay asks.
All the ninjas were having dinner together at the table, they were eating spaghetti carbonara.
Cole sighs, completely done with all of Jay's jokes.
"Idunno Jay, what do you call fake spaghetti?" Kai asks, rolling his eyes.
"An impasta!" Jay proudly exclaims whilst almost knocking his drink.
Everyone groans at the horrible joke, until a clear laugh waves through the room.
Jay's eyes widen.
It was Zane!
Zane was laughing at his joke!
"See that Cole?! I told you that I'm funny!"
He happily goes back to his dinner.

After dinner Zane and Jay were assigned to do the dishes.
After a few awkward seconds Jay drops his towel and hugs his friend tightly. "I'm sorry about this morning. You aren't emotionless, you are the opposite. I don't know anyone else who feels as much for others as you do." Jay looks up into Zane's surprised eyes and he softly says: "But you did it."
"I did what?"
"You felt something for yourself for once!" Jay proudly tells him.
Zane looked very confused, luckily Jay kept going.
"You always cry when one of us is hurting, but when it's who's hurting you don't let yourself. You're happy when we're happy. You're angry for us when we can't be. It's always for us, but never for you!"
"I had no idea that I-"
"But at dinner you laughed! For you! Not for me!"
Jay happily wraps his arms around his friend's neck. "You turned your switch on and laughed at one of the worst jokes ever!"
"Is that why you told me that I was emotionless?"
"Well I'd been thinking of pushing you a bit so you'd realize what you were doing, but I hadn't meant to do it like that. It was way too harsh. I know that I tend to act before I think. I'm so sorry."
"It's okay, your push worked." Zane smiles and slaps his arm. "Now come on these dishes aren't going to wash themselves."

A few seconds later Kai walks into the room.
He lifts his eyebrow at the giant smiles both boys were wearing.
"Is doing the dishes really that much fun?" He questions them. "Maybe we should discard the idea of everyone needing to contribute and just let you two do them from now on." He mischievously grins at them.
A few moments later Kai is getting bombarded with foam.
"Aw! Jay! Zane! My cool jacket! Now look what you've done, it's all wet!"
Looking at what they had done Zane and Jay just laugh and stick out their tongues.

:00 gasppp is this angst? Why yes maybe, it can be seen as a lil bit of angst. I tried, but of course the sad n depressing stuff didn't last long, I never know how people do it ¯\_()_/¯ I just don't like to stay in that mindset for too long, cuz then I get sad n I can't write anymore n nyehh! Nnyyyway, idk what I'm doin, hope u enjoy this quick hurt/comfort one shot, I love Zane k byeeee ♥️

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