Being Pansexual

97. i miss my gf (its been a week)

sometimes i have to spend a week without her. she's my girlfriend, my best friend, my favourite person. so, understandably, i miss her a whole lot during the week that i don't get to see her.
normally i try my hardest not to think about it by watching netflix and using other distractions. normally i text her throughout the week (a lot), send each other pictures and that's enough.
but sometimes, normally towards the end of the week, the time apart really seems to set in.
i can't stop thinking about her. for many reasons.
i can't stop missing her.
and of course, like a normal person, i message her on 4 different apps and listen to songs that remind me of her while waiting for a reply. then i roll around on the floor in frustration thinking about how much i want to cuddle with her.
then she responds but is busy.
that's fair, normal, acceptable. but i goddam miss her and wish she wasn't busy.
all at once, i want to hold her hand, cuddle with her, kiss her, talk to her, see her.
fuck i even think about just staring into her eyes.
or just sitting and listening to a song.
i watch netflix to distract myself but zone out thinking of the two of us in the movie, falling in love in that situation.
and i'm sad, but in love. i'm frustrated.
and fuxk i realise how needy i am...
:/ i miss u ❤️