Being Pansexual

99. can i kiss you again?

we step out of my car and i walk around to your side.
standing at the end of your driveway, you're looking up into my eyes.
i don't want to go. you don't want me to go.
then, all at once, we come together and i'm hugging you, tighter than i might have ever hugged you- although we have had some tight hugs before.
you're squeezing me close just as much, not wanting to let me go.
all i'm thinking about is how much i wish i never had to let you go. in the moment it really feels like this could go on forever...
then, we pull apart just a little bit and you kiss me on the cheek, smiling all big at me.
i wish i didn't want to cry as much as i do right at that moment. but that smile, i can't cry looking at you smiling at me like that.
so, i kiss you. how can i not kiss you?
we pull apart and we're back to our tight hug. we can't let go of each other for even a minute, as though we fear that we'll never be able to hold each other again.
but i can't help it. "can i kiss you again?" i ask her quietly.
"yes," she says, almost immediately.
so we pull apart and i kiss her again.
i wish i never had to leave you.