Story Of Another Us :||: 5 Seconds of Summer ✔

Chapter 28: I could slit my wrists but it really wouldn't help

Kara's POV

*2nd Month*

I was in fact wrong about being fine, today my mom and I went to the high school and registered which made me super nervous because the school was huge. We got the list for school supplies and we roamed the school. Some of the hallways reminded me of the high school in Melbourne which brought back some memories... awful memories I should put it bluntly. I wasn't ready to start school here but at least I'll have my girl best friends, well I should say sisters.

I'm becoming a Junior and so is Ella and Faith but Cassie is going to become a senior so it'll be a little difficult when she graduates. There's something about this high school, it's just like a feeling in the air, like a fresh start at this school but I also have this same darkness in me that's been gnawing at me and I can't figure out how to understand it. It could just be my past trying to bring me down to the dark place again because Michael isn't here and... to be honest he rid me of the blues... I miss them so much. They are the light in my life.

My mum and I went and got my school supplies which wasn't a lot of stuff because I still had some stuff I could use from last year. Since I've been doing not really much of anything, I have a lot of spare time while my mum is at work. I spend some of my time listening to 5SOS and staring up at the ceiling for long periods of time. I did start eventually becoming more sad than I already was and I got this weird itch like I needed to relieve pain. So... this is when I started cutting... and... to be honest it does feel good to turn my emotional pain into physical pain and just watch my blood just start running down my arm. I also started wearing long sleeves to hide my cuts and I also slowly but surely started to stop eating... I'm not proud of what I'm doing but... after a while it becomes addicting. What the hell is Michael going to think when he comes back home and sees what I'm doing???

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Near the end of August, school started and trust me. I have never been so frightened of new people in my life. I noticed a few of couples walking down the hallways which made me even more depressed. But, I'm glad that I have most of my classes with Ella and Faith. I would see Cassie every now and then in the hallways and we would smile and wave to each other. I sometimes wonder why they're friends with me because they are so much prettier than me.

During my 4th period class which is history, there's a guy I kept making awkward eye contact with, every time I turned and talked to one of my new friends, I saw him looking at me.

What the fuck is this guys problem? Let's see, he has a lot of arm tattoos, dark brown hair that's in a quiff and greenish blue eyes, about 6'4 in height, muscular... hmm definitely popular and a trouble maker. Something about this guy doesn't sit right with me... he kinda reminds me of Adin. No, ew don't think of his name Kara! Hopefully this guy will leave me alone and I hope he doesn't try to pull anything...