This is a new day, a new time. I'm pregnant. I am so excited, this time is going to be different. Mommy is keeping you. "Sperm Guy" doesn't want you but, I don't care. I am going to protect you little one. Plus, Jesus is on my side now. I can do this. Morning sickness, bring it on. Yes, I am so excited. I love it. Everything, I love it. I am pregnant!!! My baby, I love you so much already.
Short lived happiness. I started bleeding at Church. I go to the hospital. I can't believe this! Am I being punished God? I felt that I was because of having relations outside of marriage. This is my fault this is all my fault. Deep down, I know God is not punishing me. Its just what is meant to be I am so angry! I wanted this baby! I was happily pregnant for three weeks. A three week smile plastered on my face. My baby left just as she was eight weeks. I am devestated. I push past everything and hope arises again. Though the pain is still so intense. I understand now that my babies are with God. Jesus is caring for you. It doesn't make it hurt any less or the want go away. I just don't get it. I never will.
My Baby Hannah Nachole White Flew to Heaven October 3rd, 2010
Baby Hannah Nachole White
Angelversary October 3rd, 2010
Lynchburg, Virginia
