Lost Boy~ TaeJin~

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"Are you going to the party tomorrow? " Hoseok said when the other morning he went to change his clothes.

"Which party?" Taehyung said while shaving his face.

"At Jackson's place" Hoseok said shortly. 

"You know I never miss a party" Taehyung said playfully. He washed his face and changed his clothes.

"Yeah I know. We will be going too" Hoseok said with a sigh.

"We?" Taehyung asked confused.

"It's so bad that you don't know our crew. Seokjin hyung, Yoongi hyung, Namjoonie and Minnie and of course Jungkookie" Hoseok said with his sunshine smile.

"Oh... you're right" Taehyung said. Those boy's were glued to each other even if their majors were different.

"You wanna hang with us?" Hoseok asked kindly.

"You know I don't have fun the way you do" Taehyung said with a sigh.

"Hey... what's wrong with dancing, drinking and playing?" Hoseok said excitedly.

"There's absolutely nothing wrong. I dance, drink and play too" Taehyung said with his signature boxy smile.

"You do all of that in someone's bed" Hoseok stated.

"This is my way to have fun Hoseokie, now I have to attend a class" Taehyung said before rushing out of dorm. He hated to hear these stuff. He hated people trying to lecture him. He hated the fact that no one understood him. He only wanted to have fun. He didn't saw fun in acting like oldies. He wanted to be wild and free. He didn't want anything to stop him. He was in his thoughts when he heard someone calling him.

"Hey.... hey...." Taehyung turned his back only to see Seokjin. He looked down.

"Yes Seokjin? " Taehyung said impolitely. Seokjin held his hand up, only to reveal something red.

"This fell from you" Seokjin said. Taehyung snatched it out of his hand. It was his small Tata doll that he hanged it on his satchel.

"Thank you Seokjinssi" Taehyung said before turning his back from the charming man. He felt a wrist around his hand. Seokjin turned him back to himself. Taehyung gazed at Seokjin's fingers wrapped around his slim wrist. Then he looked up.

"Is there something else?" Taehyung asked. He hated his cold tone. He hated his rudeness. But it was the only way made him keep his cool down.

"I'm your hyung, don't be so cold to me Tae" Seokjin said. Taehyung would die if he could. He didn't want to be cold, he didn't want to hear that warm tone from Seokjin. He only looked at Seokjin. The other let go of his hand..... Taehyung still didn't respond..... The man turned his back....... Taehyung didn't responded at all..... the man faded away out of Taehyung's sight..... Taehyung looked down.

"I'm sorry hyung. It's the best for you to be away from me" he whispered before resuming his day.

Later that night he was drinking in a corner of the bar. Watching the disgusting people dancing unmodestly. He was one of them too. He was one of the disgusting ones, indeed he was the most disgusting one. Ugly and dirty. He took the whole shot.

"Hey sexy" he heard someone saying before feeling a hand on his  right thigh. He turned to his right only to meet a young boy, maybe he was at his age.

"Hey charming" he said with his boxy smile.

"Someone as beautiful as you must not be alone. Why you're solo?" The boy said while moving his hand up and down Taehyung's thigh.

"Searching for companion I guess " Taehyung said playfully.

"Am I a good candidate?" The boy said. Taehyung made a thoughtful look and scanned the boy up and down.

"You look like it though I didn't catch your name " Taehyung said.

"I'm Yugyeom" the boy said.

"Taehyung " Taehyung answered curtly. Yugyeom's hand traveled to his right hip.

"My place?" He whispered. Taehyung nodded with a boxy smile and a wink. They headed out of that disgusted bar. They drove to Yugyeom's place. When the boy unlocked his door. Both attacked to each other like heated animals. Crashed their lips widely. Moved their lips without sync. Yugyeom's hands traveled down Taehyung's shirt and sneaked into his bare skin. Taehyung hissed erotically by this touch. He unbuckled Yugyeom's belt. While Yugyeom unbuttoned his shirt. Soon they were naked on the boy's king-size bed. Soon they finished their first round. Started the other and another. It was 4 o'clock when they both got tired. Yugyeom fell sleep instantly.
Taehyung didn't. He looked at himself. He was sweaty and dirty. He was so dirty. He hadn't a spot in his body that other man didn't touched. He was dirty. A tear fell down his face. He was so dirty. How could he clean the mess he was in? How could he clean the ugly past of his? How could he clean other men touches on him? How could he live a normal life? How could he take back the time when he wasn't 19 yet?
Taehyung was dirty and ugly and messy. Yet he fell in love with the purest, most beautiful man of the world. Tears rolled down his face. He sobbed silently. He looked at Yugyeom. If he was clean, if he was worthy of Seokjin he wouldn't hesitate a second to make him for himself. He wouldn't never let go. He would attach to the man any second. But he wasn't worthy. He was ugly and dirty. Seokjin's partner must have been someone as bright as him, as pure as him, as beautiful as him. Taehyung was anything but pure. He stood up, headed to the shower. He turned on the shower. Water ran down him. Tear drips hit his face. And he cried. He cried while letting his body to be clean. He cleaned his body every night. After his emotionless sexes. He cleaned his body but the weight was on his chest. Pressuring his chest that he couldn't breath. He couldn't clean his soul. He look at the mirror. his body wouldn't be clean even if he showered for a lifetime. He was dirty. So so so dirty.

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Hi dear readers. Hope you like this story.
What do you think about it? Why do you think Taehyung is handling a messy life?  What do you think about Seokjin? Until now wasn't so much about him though. What do you think about the rest of the boys?
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