Lost Boy~ TaeJin~

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Moving in with Seokjin meant only one thing. They had to share the one bedroomed apartment. Seokjin's family was wealthy and Seokjin had a good background but when he moved out of dorm he afford a tiny bedroom. Taehyung knew why, he had felt Seokjin, he understood it. The more place gets bigger, the more you feel lonely. Seokjin was living here alone and he wasn't in a relationship. Back when they were roommates Seokjin was so busy to take care of Taehyung, he never could go on dates. And after he moved on he never went on a date too. So Seokjin's loneliness was always touchable for Taehyung. Seokjin was good and kind to his friends, they filled his time a bit. But what about rest of the time? Taehyung sometimes wondered does Seokjin even has needs? Taehyung slept with someone every night, while Seokjin didn't like one night hook ups. Taehyung knew Seokjin had his last sex when he was in relationship back in high school. It's been years and Seokjin never tried to find someone. That always made Taehyung feel disgusted of himself. He was in love with Seokjin yet he slept with various people meanwhile Seokjin was in his celibacy. That always made Taehyung feel more dirty next to Seokjin.

"What's wrong?" Jungkook said while putting some books on the bookshelf. Their friends were at Seokjin's place to help him settle down.

"Nothing" Taehyung mumbled before handing him another book.

"Are you regretted?" Jungkook whispered after he checked around.

"Regret of what? Moving to here?" Taehyung asked, Jungkook nodded subtly. "No, not at all. It's just there are lots of things in my mind now" Taehyung said.

"Tell me and we can work on it hyung" Jungkook whispered.

"I don't know Kook, it's just I don't know what will happen after now. I don't know lots of things and it drives me insane" Taehyung said.

"I'm sure everything will get better after now. But hyung, will you.... I mean.... will you go out again?" Jungkook whispered. Taehyung looked at him deeply. Not knowing what to answer.

"No he won't Kookah, don't worry" Seokjin said from back. Both of their eyes grew bigger as they turned to their back.

"Hyung" both said with a scared tone. Seokjin chuckled, he wrapped a hand around Taehyung's waist and the other around Jungkook's shoulder.

"What? I will make sure he won't be naughty" Seokjin said with a joking tone.

"Are you cheating on me?" Yoongi said toward Jungkook who's hand was masaging Seokjin's neck.

"How can I? Its hard to resist Seokjin hyung" Jungkook said with his bunny smile. Taehyung didn't know what Yoongi was feeling but he wasn't okay, he felt a fire pang in his chest. Yoongi rolled his eyes before approaching Seokjin and clinging to him.

"You're right let's cheat on each other with hyungie" Yoongi said. Seokjin chuckled he let go of Taehyung's waist and placed it on Yoongi's shoulder. Taehyung was feeling the fire burning him badly.

"Get of me you unfaithful brats" Seokjin said while shoving them off of him. They laughed before going toward the couch to cuddle. No matter how nonsense jokes they make, they loved each other so much. It was truly obvious. Seokjin turned to
Taehyung and wrapped his hands around his waist again.

"You can't control me" Taehyung said with furrowed brows. He was mad.

"I'm not. If you want then go, we can go together too. Have some drinks and come back" Seokjin said. Taehyung looked at him with big eyes. This man was in another level. Taehyung sighed.

"Let's have dinner they're all tired" Seokjin said while pointing to Jungkook, Yoongi and Namjoon. Taehyung nodded before going to bedroom where Jimin and Hoseok were placing his clothes in wardrobe.

"Thank you guys" Taehyung said with smile toward them. Hoseok smiled and hugged him tightly. Taehyung felt like his hones gonna break.

"What is this for?" Taehyung asked with red face because of pressure.

"You're face is glowing, TaeTae. You're glowing like an angel" Hoseok said softly. Taehyung looked down. Was he really? Why he was feeling dirty still?

"We haven't talked before but I want to say Taehyung was always angel Hoseok hyung" Jimin said. Taehyung smiled shyly and thanked him.

"Let's go and eat dinner guys." Taehyung said. They nodded and went to kitchen. Jimin was quick to place himself in Namjoon's lap. Taehyung smiled at them. It was so cute to be with the one you're in love with. He turned his gaze to Seokjin who was placing foods on table. They all attacked to foods while Seokjin was working on another food. There was dumplings too. Seokjin always loved it. Taehyung  placed 6 of them on his plate when he saw the hungry people. Seokjin placed another dish on the table and sat down between Taehyung and Hoseok. The dumplings were already finished. No one noticed Seokjin's lingering eyes on empty dumpling plates. Taehyung nudged Seokjin. Then pushed his plate toward Seokjin. He saw the excitement in Seokjin's face. Taehyung felt proud but instantly shy because Seokjin kissed his cheek.

"Thank you angel" Seokjin whispered before biting a dumpling. He fed the rest of same dumpling to Taehyung. They ate six dumplings together. Shared them. Like how they shared the apartment.
When their friends left there it was already midnight.

"Hyung. We never talked before but I'll sleep on the couch since now" Taehyung said. Seokjin looked at him deeply.

"We will sleep together" Seokjin stated.

"No hyung, I'll sleep on the couch. You get the bed for yourself" Taehyung said.

"Tae, it wasn't hard to buy two beds to my bedroom but I didn't because I wanted us to sleep like before" Seokjin said. Taehyung looked at him.

"Hyung..." Taehyung wanted to protest.

"No hyung, we will sleep together on our bed" Seokjin said before holding Taehyung's wrist and drawing both to bedroom. They changed to pajamas and brushed their teeth before laying down. Both bodies facing ceiling. Both of them not so close but longing to get close. It passed some time and Taehyung didn't sleep. He could guess Seokjin didn't too.

"Hyung" Taehyung called. Seokjin turned to him. Taehyung did same.

"I don't want to go to clubs anymore" Taehyung said. Seokjin stayed silent. "With you or without you. I feel so dirty there. I don't want to be dirty anymore" he continued. Seokjin wrapped his hands around Taehyung's body then wrapping his legs around Taehyung's legs. Taehyung was caged completely.

"You're not dirty Taehyung, you've never been." Seokjin said. He kissed Taehyung's forehead.

"Why you say that?" Taehyung asked with frown.

"Because I see you so pure and innocent Taehyung. I wish you could see yourself the way I can see you" Seokjin says.

"I've been with people more than any sluts" Taehyung said. He was ashamed of himself.

"Shh.... Don't say that. You only wanted to punish yourself for something you haven't done" Seokjin said.

"Aren't you ashamed of me? Everyone knows me" Taehyung said.

"Never. More over I'm proud. I made you settle down next to me. I have you in my arms now and I don't care about your past. I never cared but you always ran away" Seokjin said.

"You're so pure. I'm not" Taehyung whispered. Seokjin kissed Taehyung's jaw.

"Taehyung let's forget everything, please. You're insulting yourself over and over. Loose a bit and let me heal you. Let me show you how special and how innocent you are" Seokjin said, Taehyung only looked at him.

"Do you trust me?" Seokjin asked. Taehyung blinked.

"More than anybody else even myself" Taehyung said without hezitation.

"Then jump over this humiliation and be sure I'll hold you" Seokjin said.

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