Lost Boy~ TaeJin~

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"I want to change my collage major" Taehyung said. Seokjin looked at him straightly and exprisonexprison. Taehyung couldn't understand if  Seokjin liked the idea or not. His hand sweated.  Was it inappropriate to say? But it was his first step to change himself. He didn't want to be the old dirty Taehyung anymore. He didn't want to earn money by using his body or face. He didn't want to be useless. He wanted to use his mind and his talent. Not only his body.

"Why? I thought you like modeling?" Seokjin asked. His hand reached to Taehyung's cheek and rested there.

"I don't want it anymore. I want to study something usefull." Taehyung said. He didn't know what was Seokjin's reaction will be, but deeply he wished he would agree.

"Tomorrow we will go to collage office and apply for the major you want. It's not a hard task, we will complete some forms. Then we have to  get the schedule. Though you have to work hard to not leave behind. " Seokjin said. Taehyung looked at him, Seokjin didn't even asked what he wanted. He just tried to help him. With every day passing Taehyung was falling in love more with Seokjin's understanding and consideration besides his kind, pure heart.

"Oh by the way, what major you want to pick?" Seokjin asked while caressing Taehyung's cheek. Taehyung looked at him a bit nervous. Maybe it was a ridiculous decision to change his major from modeling to that. But he wanted it.

"Hyung.... I want to... study... phi.... philosophy" Taehyung stuttered. Seokjin looked at him with big eyes.

"Philosophy? Really?" Seokjin answered with surprised expression. Taehyung only nodded. He was nervous from this decision.

"Why philosophy, Taehyungah? " Seokjin asked softly.

"In these years... I've been so superficial. Since that incident, I lost myself... I lost the person who I used to be and day by day I trapped more in it. I just grieved for what happened to me, but I never thought what I earned from it. I wanted to be model because I was still immature, I wanted to be famous and everyone praise my face but hyung I don't belong to that. I don't want people to admire my appearance I want to train people, I want to train them so their thoughts will be wider, their view from the world will be deeper and the look they have toward life will be more meaningful. I wanna study philosophy for now, but in future I wanna be a philosophy teacher." Taehyung said. Seokjin smiled at him.

"I'm proud of you... so much... the Taehyung talking like this.... it's so fascinating and breathtaking... all mature and wise... I just can say I support you... I root for you... I'll be by your side in this beautiful path you chosed to walk. I'm waiting for the day seeing you in front of the class, teaching the meaning of life to students. I'm wiling for that moment" Seokjin said, he was smiling brightly. A tear slipped down from Taehyung's eyes.  Seokjin hugged him tighter. Taehyung couldn't be happier.

"It's okay now. Everything will be fine... don't worry Taehyungah... hyung will be here for you. Crying is enough" Seokjin whispered, he weeped Taehyung's tears away with kisses.

"Happy tears hyung... thank you... thank you so much" Taehyung sobbed.

"I did nothing Tae-ah. I don't even know why you suddenly changed" Seokjin chuckled.

"It's.... it's ridiculous if I say the book changed me?" Taehyung asked between sobs. Seokjin chuckled more.

"Taehyung, books includes sentences and sentences includes words. Words are the most powerful thing human being has invited. Words can hurt, can mend, can love, can joke. Books are  so powerful. I'm sure Taehyung, Every book reader person has a book that changed him totally" Seokjin answered.

"Still... you were the one recommended me that book" Taehyung said. Seokjin caressed Taehyung's right hip slightly.

"Sophie's world? That's a strong book indeed. Whatever it is Taehyung. I'm proud of you, I've always been. You're strong" Seokjin said, he kissed Taehyung's tears away.

"I get my strength from you Seokjinnie hyung" Taehyung whispered. Seokjin smiled widely.

"You said you earned from what happened to you, what is that?" Seokjin asked. Taehyung didn't know if he can answer or not. If he was ready to confess or not.

"You hyung... I got you. I'm so lucky to have you in my life" Taehyung whispered shyly. Seokjin stroked Taehyung's hair.

"Do you remember once when you had fever?" Seokjin asked. Taehyung used to get sick alot those days. And those feverish days were blurry and unclear.

"Which time hyung?" Taehyung asked.

"The very first time" Seokjin answered. The first time he got fever was the very first day he got to the dorm. He nodded his head as yes.

"It was first time I saw you. You were so baby. So child. Untouched and pure. I was in awe how a kid like you will suffer in collage life. At the night you got sick. It was the very first night that I decided to take care of you. To not let the world change you. And right  now when I look at your eyes they radiat same innocence  and pureness. " Seokjin said.
He placed Taehyung's head on his chest. Taehyung clung to Seokjin.  He inhaled Seokjin's sandal scent deeply. He closed his eyes and enjoyed the soft touches and caresses. Taehyung inhaled again. One day, once in a lifetime he will confess how much he loves Seokjin, but not now. Maybe tomorrow or maybe next week. But certainly not now.

"Hyungie" Taehyung called Seokjin as whisper. Seokjin answered with hum.

"Can you... please sing for me? Like old days" Taehyung asked, he deeply wished Seokjin will sing for him. Those days he was addicted to Seokjin's voice. Seokjin looked at him intensely.

"When this night passes
I’m afraid I won’t be able to see you

The utterly clear gaze
The touch I got too used to
The face that smiled at me
Will I be unable to see you again anymore?

In my every day
You are there
In your every day
I’m there
When the moon is gone
And the sun rises
The one who has been with me
Will you be gone?

When I close my eyes
I feel like it will remind me of the times
That we were together
When I close my eyes
I feel like I will think of only the happy memories again

When this night passes
I’m afraid I won’t be able to see you
When this night passes
I’m afraid that I’ll be left alone"
Seokjin sang passionately. Taehyung didn't fought with his tears the whole time. He let his tears wet Seokjin's chest. Why Seokjin's voice was sad?

"I'll never leave you hyung" Taehyung whispered.

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Hi guys. I hope you like the new chapter.
Tell me your thoughts about it, please.
I asked this question alot today though I'll ask here again, what is the book that changed you?
Luv you💙💙💙💙💙💙💙