Lost Boy~ TaeJin~

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"Sex!" Taehyung said so suddenly. Seokjin looked confused a bit before pushing a strawberry in Taehyung's mouth. Taehyung chewed it slowly.

"Sex?" Seokjin repeated still with confusion. Taehyung didn't know if he can say what he wanted or not.

"I don't want to have Sex for a while" Taehyung whispered with horror. He had his own reasons but maybe not meeting Seokjin's expectations. Though Seokjin didn't responded. He kept chewing a strawberry while pushing another to Taehyung's mouth.

"I want to stay celibate until I feel I can give all of myself to you" Taehyung said. Seokjin looked at his eyes. Nuzzeled his nose to Taehyung's.

"Philosophy is effecting you so much" Seokjin said.

"I'm serious Seokjin" Taehyung said. Afraid if Seokjin doesn't like the idea.

"can you explain me more? I mean I want to understand your intentions better" Seokjin said and Taehyung's heart just melted. Really really melted. How did he got such adorable boyfriend?

"I've been with so much people, so many. I'm touched, I'm not saying unclean but compared to your Sex life I'm really like a whore. Actually it's not about you or sex, I just wanna have the feeling of purity and untouchedness. I want to push off the weight of those meaningless sexes. I'm not saying Sex is forbidden but I say emotionless Sex is not good. Not for our mental health or our view. It even effects our sexual desire. So I want to feel the purity I haven't felt for so long. I know you may he dislike it, because we're living in the same place and we are in relationship. You have every right to want sex..... I'm sorry" Taehyung said. Seokjin hugged him tighter.

"I don't care as long as you're next to me" Seokjin said. Tugging Taehyung's head tighter to his chest. Taehyung looked at Seokjin with fondness and admiration.

"Are you sure? It's not one week or one month. It will be like this until I reach to a level of self-satisfaction and purity. Maybe months." Taehyung said. Inside his heart afraid that Seokjin may back out.

"So what? I had lived three years without your presence in my life. I would rather have you in my arms forever. I would rather have not sex till I die but have you this close" Seokjin said. Taehyung tried so hard to fight his tears. He kissed Seokjin's cheeks before capturing Seokjin's lips. Seokjin parted the kiss immediately.

"But you're kissing?!" Seokjin said. Taehyung giggled.

"I guess celibacy means no intercourse. I mean we can kiss, hug, cuddle but not sexual actions. " Taehyung said. Seokjin rose his brows in understandment. He planted a chaste kiss on Taehyung's lips. Kept his lips unmoved. Taehyung loved the sensual feeling of Seokjin's lips on his. Unmoved and ful feeling.

"I wanted to say something" Seokjin said once they parted. Taehyung tilted his head.

"I think you should.... no... you must talk to your mother" Seokjin said. Taehyung got paled.

"Hyung! You know I can't" Taehyung whined. He couldn't risk it at all.

"She must know this" Seokjin stated. Taehyung nuzzeled in Seokjin's neck deeply.

"I don't want to ruin her life Hyung. I know how much she sacrificed raising me. Just when she found happiness I can't risk it at all." Taehyung said. He was pale and thanks to Seokjin hugging him as support.

"Angel.... Do you know how much she will get hurt if she gets to know her husband was rapist?" Seokjin asked. He planted a kiss on Taehyung's forehead when he saw his pale face.

"She will break. She already hurt so much knowing I was raped" Taehyung said. Seokjin looked at him and kissed his eyelids.

"How you said you were raped? It's easier than that" Seokjin said.

"I regretted every word I uttered to her. She misunderstood my words so wrongly" Taehyung whispered with closed eyes recalling those days.

"Yeah! She thought I raped you" Seokjin chuckled. Taehyung could hear that fake chuckling. He could feel the pain swinging in it.

"I'm sorry! It was my fault. I made her misunderstand and caused you pain." Taehyung said. Seokjin stroked Taehyung's hair.

"You let me go since that time but you never thought I may get the anxiety chest pains?" Seokjin asked. Taehyung paled even more. He flinched so bad.

"You had them still?" Taehyung asked with worry. Seokjin was living alone, what if something had happened to him?

"I had, I will still have. Whenever I'm anxious more than my limits I have it. It wasn't about you Tae. I was just pained to see her hurtful face. How she cried while punching my chest. It must be very hard. That's why I say you should say" Seokjin said.

"What if she hurts again?" Taehyung asked with horror and worry.

"Does she ever convinced that I wasn't the one?" Seokjin asked. Taehyung gasped. He tried to explain her that Seokjin wasn't the one who hurt him. But after a while when their connections got distant Taehyung let the subject go. She never believed Taehyung.

"We are in a relationship Tae... not something ridiculous. I'm planing a future with you. Your mother has to know I wasn't the one? How do you expect her to be comfortable with the thought if his son being in relationship with his rapist? This wrong thought will break her more" Seokjin said.

"I have to say" Taehyung whispered. Facing the truth he must do. He had to do it for himself, Seokjin and his mother.

"You have to" Seokjin repeated before kissing Taehyung's temple.

"I will say, when breaks starts I'll visit her. I'll explain everything but.... but would you come with me too? I can't face him alone even after so many years. I know my mom maybe will attack you again but will you?" Taehyung asked. He was nervous.

"I wanted to come even before you asked me to. I have to meet my future mother-in-law properly." Seokjin teased. Taehyung giggled shyly. He was nervous for nothing.

"You're just nervous for nothing" Seokjin said. Taehyung smiled at him. Seokjin understood Taehyung even better than he understood himself.

"I'm nervous for nothing." Taehyung whispered.

"Passing by the edge of the cold winter
Until the days of spring
Until the days of flower blossoms
Please stay, please stay there a little longer...." Seokjin Sang in Taehyung's ear.

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Hi everyone. Here comes new chapter. Do you know what song Seokjin Sang at the end??
What do you think about whole celibacy subject? What do you think about the whole chapter? Can you match the puzzles?
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