Lost Boy~ TaeJin~

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Taehyung wrapped a towel around himself and walked towards his wardrobe. He wore black jeans with black loose shirt. He puffed some perfume before walking toward the door.

"Out again?" Hoseok said while walking out of kitchen.

"Yeah, why?" Taehyung said not looking at Hoseok.

"I feel like I'm living alone here" Hoseok said.

"It's good, isn't it? " Taehyung asked the boy with a knowing face.

"It is not, when you're like this" Hoseok said. While eyeing him up and down.

"What's wrong with me?" Taehyung snapped harshly.

"You're... you'll get nothing by this wild life. What's wrong with settling down and keep things in order?" Hoseok snapped at him as harsh as himself.

"I don't want to live like old people so... fuck off Hoseok" Taehyung said before heading out.
he inhaled deeply behind the door. He hated himself. Hoseok was older than him. He must never have disrespect him. He had been rude many times and Hoseok responded as bright as sunshine. Taehyung inhaled again. Yoongi, Seokjin and Hoseok. All wanted the best for him. He didn't worth it. He was as ugly as dirt. He was rude for all of them. He was a rude boy. That's why he never got close to them. The closer he gets they become dirty. He didn't want that. All of them had bright future, specially his Seokjin hyung. That man didn't need a spot of dirt in his bright, white life. He hated himself for loving someone perfect.

"TaeTae hyung. Where you going?" Jungkook said while walking through the campus.

"Out" Taehyung said curtly.

"Can we hang out together? Yoongi has plans tonight" Jungkook said. What could Taehyung say?

"Absolutely no" Taehyung whispered before turning his back and walking out. He didn't turned his head back but he could see Jungkook's disappointed face. He hated to hurt them and he already hurt two of them today. He walked slowly toward the bar he always go. After what Minho did, he was hesitant to go there. But nothing changed. He belonged to that dirt. Taehyung stepped in it after taking a deep breath. He hated the smell of alcohol and sweat. Many shameless people was making out here and there. Taehyung hated to see this bar. But he knew after all he belonged to here. Taehyung sat in his spot and ordered a shot. Drank it while thinking about that day. Thinking about how Seokjin saved him. Took care of him and fed him. Taehyung wished Seokjin would cage him in his house that day. Cage him so he couldn't go out there play with dirt. Taehyung sighed, his body belonged to here but his soul and heart belonged to Seokjin. He remembered when he was 19. When he went to collage for the first time. He found his dorm number, he entered there devastated and broken. He saw an angel sitting on the couch. Taehyung remembered how Seokjin took care of him that time, when he was in pain and suffered so much. Those times Seokjin didn't know anything about him. Right now Taehyung didn't know anything about himself. Taehyung sighed by remembering those sweet times when they were living together. Taehyung let Seokjin to spoil him and pamper him, to praise him and show love to him. But it took one term for Taehyung to understand he must not be unfair toward the man. That however he enjoyed being spoiled by him. It was unfair and mean to Seokjin. Taehyung didn't worth it. It was his first year while the older was year three. He started to change, being rude and disrespectful. He started to ignore and neglect Seokjin. Taehyung sighed by remembering those times. He hated himself. It was hard as hell to behave like that to the person he loved most in the world. Soon Seokjin moved out of dorm, soon Taehyung praised him by distance. Taehyung always had eyes on him. To see if he was eating well, if he was okay. Though he never got close. Taehyung sipped his sixth shot when he felt someone sitting next to him.

"You're alone?" The boy whispered.

"What is I am?" Taehyung whispered back.

"Then I'm ready to take you" The boy said.

"Take me where?" Taehyung asked with a smirk.

"Take you to the high" the boy said. Taehyung laughed.

"I'm Jackson" the boy said while moving his hand on Taehyung's back.

"Taehyung " Taehyung said while palming Jackson's crotch.

"Aren't you from Seokjin's crew?" Jackson's asked, Taehyung sighed.

"No I'm not." Taehyung answered longingly.

"I've seen them with you alot " Jackson said while grabbing Taehyung's hand.

"Just collage works" Taehyung said before following Jackson to out.

"In the car? " Jackson said

"Why not your place?" Taehyung said while capturing Jackson's lips.

"First round in the car" Jackson smirked between kisses.

"Sounds good." Taehyung whispered. Jackson unbuttoned Taehyung's shirt while Taehyung did the same to his. Once their top was naked they attacked to each other. Jackson moved his lips to Taehyung's neck and chest. Trailing kisses down there. He was sucking one spot when Taehyung stopped him.

"No marks" Taehyung said.

"Okay babe" Jackson chuckled before kissing his collarbone hard. Taehyung moaned. He hated how sensitive he was. Jackson kissed his neck then his ear. Taehyung shivered and moaned loudly. Jackson turned his lips to Taehyung's buds. Sucked one while playing with another. It was too much for Taehyung.

"Ah... Jinnah...." Taehyung said. Both boys flinched. Taehyung looked at Jackson. The boy was already looking at him.

"Really?" Jackson said while moving to another seat.

"It's only collage stuff right?" Jackson yelled. Taehyung startled.

"I'm sorry" Taehyung whispered with a tear rolling down his face. He felt like whores.

"Be sorry for yourself. Why you're tutoring yourself when that man is wiling to have you?" Jackson yelled. More tears rolled down Taehyung's face.

"How do you know?" Taehyung whispered.

"You're too busy watching him that you don't know I'm Namjoon's friend?" Jackson said while shaking his head.

"Get out of the car." Jackson said. Taehyung was quick to grab his shirt and getting off the car. Jackson started the car and drove instantly. Taehyung wore his shirt and buttoned it. He started to walk while crying. Why he said that? Why he did that? Why he is so dirty? He hated himself for being such a dirt. He hated himself that he moaned Seokjin's name while doing the dirt. Taehyung hated himself. He was dirty and it was awful. He was dirty yet he was in love with Seokjin. How he wished he could take back the time when he was 18! Then he could leave home early, then he was clean when he met Seokjin. But he was already dirty when he saw him siting on the dorm couch. Taehyung walked and walked until he reached to a particular building. He went toward a particular door and pushed the ring. Soon the door crept open and revealed two heads.

"Taehyung?!"

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Hi everybody here comes the fifth chapter. I hope you like it.
Give me your thoughts I will consider them for writing new chapters.
Have you heard "No love" by lil Wayne and Eminem?
It's one of my favourite songs.
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