Lost Boy~ TaeJin~

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"Are you assuming we are couple?" Seokjin teased Taehyung. Though he only looked at the older man with hitched breath. Could they be? Was it late to? They could save? Taehyung didn't know and he was confused. The path they've walked on it was so twisted and so hard. Taehyung broke down many times. He changed his way to wrong many times. Could he follow Seokjin forever? What if he changes his way again? What if he became so dumb and idiot again? What if he hurt Seokjin again? What if he leave Seokjin, one day?
Taehyung looked at Seokjin, he was staring at him with a light smile. A calming smile. Seokjin's smile were magnetic. Taehyung would get drown in it until he smiled himself. Taehyung smiled back. Shyly and nervously. He reached out for Seokjin's hand. Held it tightly. Seokjin intertwined their fingers. Taehyung was calm. He closed his eyes.

"I love you, hyung" Taehyung breathed out shakily. He felt squeeze on his hand. His hands were sweaty and trembling. He opened his eyes. Seokjin still had the same smile. Like Taehyung said nothing. Taehyung flinched when he saw a tear rolling down Seokjin's face. Taehyung's heart ripped apart. He could feel hell when Seokjin was like this. Crying! How could Seokjin cry when outside of this home he was the brightest human being. Taehyung approached closer to the man he loved more than anyone else, anything else. Soon he appeared in Seokjin's embrace. He felt tears wetting his head. Seokjin's chin resting on top of his head. Hands wrapped around Taehyung so tightly. Seokjin's body was so warm, so good, so cozy. Seokjin's body was so home. Taehyung felt like he belonged there. He felt like they belonged to this shared warmth. This shared home. He tilted his head up. Watched his hyung crying. His prisoned hands reached out to Seokjin's face. Seokjin's hands didn't let go of Taehyung's hands. He couldn't reach to Seokjin's face. Taehyung leaned his face in. He kissed the tears away. Kissed each of them, tasted the salty taste of Seokjin's tears. He never stopped, he kissed and kissed the tears until Seokjin stopped crying. They were looking at each other. Seokjin's nose red. Eyes swollen and glassy. Taehyung didn't know if it's right time to talk but he knew if he didn't talked now, he will never find the courage again.

"I love you hyung. I love you more than anything I could love. I fell in love with you since the first night you took care of my broken soul. I loved you more and more since day one. You even didn't know me hyung. You could ignore me, neglect me. You could do anything, even worst you could take advantage of my vulnerable state. You didn't. You always took care of me with so much love. Even my parents didn't made me feel loved like you did. I wanted to be with you forever. Follow you forever where ever you go. Stick to you, because you were my remedy. You still are." Taehyung said, he fought so much with his tears.

"Then why Taehyungah? Why? " Seokjin asked.

"What why?" Taehyung asked softly.

"Why you chose to punish both of us? By ignoring me, by making distance between us. By giving your body to others when I waited for you to come back to dorm?" Seokjin asked, new tears rolled down his face.

"Hyung! My mother ran to our dorm and insulted you. She thought you had raped me. She thought you were the one. And I saw your devastated state. I saw how you held your chest and sweated because of pain. I felt your chest pain like it was my body. I didn't want that for you. I wanted you to be always bright. I was the reason of that. I couldn't forgive myself for causing you pain. I thought I only drown you down and you were worthy of someone higher and better than me. A person who wasn't raped by his stepfather at least. I felt unclean and you were the most clean and pure person." Taehyung said, his tears were now rolling down. Both were crying in each other's embrace. 

"I never saw you unclean or dirty Taehyungah. You were victim. Victims are always pure and innocent. When your mother came to dorm instead of sleeping with someone else, you had to explain what your stepdad did." Seokjin said. Taehyung kissed Seokjin's cheeks.

"I know. Believe me I know. But I was young and dumb and afraid. I was afraid. I didn't know what will happen if I say. I was afraid if I ruined her life" Taehyung answered.

"You ruined your life instead. Do you know how many years we lost? How many years we could be together and make memories? All these years I thought maybe you got tired of me." Seokjin said with tears rolling down.

"I'm sorry hyung. I loved you so much that I wanted to suffer alone rather than bringing you down and hurting you" Taehyung answered. He sobbed silently. Seokjin tightened his embrace.

"I was hurting every night waiting for you, but you were busy with other man. Do you know how much I was hurt? I moved from dorm because of it.  You didn't need me anymore and I was getting hurt." Seokjin said. Taehyung sobbed harder. He wasn't aware of it.

"I'm sorry hyung, I'm sorry. I told you all I caused was pain and sadness for you" Taehyung whispered through sobs.

"Taehyung, I was happy with every smile on your face. I still get happy when you smile. I don't care about what you did, what happened, why and when or how. But please don't ever feel down of yourself. You're so up and pure. Like angels flying above the sky" Seokjin whispered.

"You forgive me hyung? Forgive me for all I've done, for all I made you suffer. Will you forgive me for leaving you alone?" Taehyung asked, unsure.

"I.... Taehyungah.... there's nothing for me to forgive. I never felt like I need to forgive. Because whatever you do, I'll be here again" Seokjin said .

"I know.... I know" Taehyung breathed out shakily.

"Angel?" Seokjin called him. Taehyung only responded with stating at him.

"I love you too, baby angel"

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