i can feel myself losing grip of you, slowly slipping each finger off your face and my hair falling off your shoulder, dropping onto my back. it's a calm release, like when you unbutton your shirt at the end of the day, or when you first said "i love you". i've been pushed to go when things were bad, but now that they're okay again i feel the urge to pull away even more. i've been told all my life to not hold onto someone who wouldn't do the same, to not chase someone who runs from you. i cannot beg you to stay anymore, i can't feel that pain in my chest when i hear those dreadful words leave your lips. i'm not strong enough to go through it again, i'm not strong enough to love someone who doesn't love me the same. but i feel strong enough to slip away.
