on your bad days all i want to do is to wrap myself around you and kiss you gently and tell you everything is okay. on my bad days i need your positive presence and your chest to lay my lead on. i haven't seen you in months, with no for sure end in sight. i see others going out, enjoying their time with their friends and lovers, extending my time alone without being able to see you. my days are lonely especially when i look at the clock and i see 3:00pm. i'd be with you right now if things didn't go to hell. i only see you in my memories and the pictures i have of you, and that's heartbreaking. there's no one i'd rather spend this time with and have by my side, but it hurts knowing how long it's been and not knowing when i'll see you again. if i would have known that would be our last kiss, last coffee, last day together, i would have held you so much tighter and not let go. the world is crazy right now, but i couldn't imagine a world without your calming presence.
i've learned so many things about you and i have gotten so incredibly close to you, i'm almost thankful for this time we've had to connect. i've learned that i love you, in a way i don't love anyone else. i haven't told you yet, and i don't know when i will, but i do hope you feel the same. i dont easily feel these ways about people, but with you falling was almost like second nature. you've had me wrapped around your finger since the day we met, though you don't need to know that. i've had a feeling about you all this time and i never would have thought we would turn into something, but i'm so glad we both took the leap. i'm gladly falling more and more in love with you everyday, with so many things you do and say, especially when you're not paying attention. i'm willing to risk getting my heart crushed if it means i get to feel this pure bliss for these moments.
