The new girl

Chpt 21

I hung up the phone and couldn't even think straight. I walked out the bathroom right out the front door. I wasn't thinking of anyone or anything else. Landon wasn't important anymore. My friends weren't important. Nothing was important. I could focus, I hopped on my bike and sped home. I pulled into my driveway and dropped my bike letting it crash to the ground. I walked toward my front door which was locked. I didn't have my key so I kicked in the front window and climbed through. As I walked through what once was a home I couldn't help but remembered everything I'd spent years trying to forget.

I'd grown up in this home. I once had a mother and father, and the best friend I could ask for as my sister. We'd always been such a close family. My mother spoiled us and my father adored everyone of us. I walked through the he living room remembering playing with sister while my parents would watch. I stepped into the kitchen where'd we'd cook and eat as a family. I walked toward my parents room and thought about how much they'd loved each other. I glanced toward my sisters old room still the same as it was the day we left for the beach. I caused the argument and I killed her and my mom. I was the reason my father had lost his light and I'd lost two of the closest people to me. And now I'd driven my father away. And he's gone too, I'll never see him again. If only I hadn't caused the argument. If only I hadn't turned away from my dad. Things would be different, I'd still have my family. I crashed to the floor and cried out. I began choking on every cry I'd sounded out, bunches of salty tears rolling down my face. I didn't feel worthy of anything anymore. Not love, life, happiness, I didn't deserve anything ever again. I knew what I had to do, I forced myself to get up and go into my room. I ripped everything out of my closet. I walked over to my bed and shredded every blanket and pillow on it. I began pulling out every drawer and that's when I found it. My sisters necklace. She had one piece and I had the other. That's when my heart broke completely I threw the whole dresser to the ground. I looked into the mirror to see my face covered in wet makeup and mascara dripping down my cheeks as the tears kept flowing.

I picked up my jewelry box and threw it at the mirror as I watched it shatter like my heart. Every little peace falling to the ground. I snatched some clothes off the ground and shoved them into a bag. I knew landon would begin looking for me but I didn't want to be near him. I had to leave I can't live with myself anymore. I grabbed the car keys and went get into the car. I wasn't sure where I was going yet but I knew I was going somewhere. I drove for about 2 hours I wasn't sure where I was going but I continued to drive. I'd shut my phone off so nobody could bother me. But I had a bad feeling as I was driving so I pulled over and tried to get fresh air. But before I knew it I began throwing up, I dropped to the ground and leaned again my car and continued to cry. I seen a pair of headlights before I got light headed and passed out.