The new girl

Chpt: 26

After 1 hour in delivery and 10 minutes of pushing my little baby was born. It was a girl and she was so tiny. Everything was completely healthy. She had a patch of curly brown hair and after a while when she opened her eyes I realized how pretty they were. I held her for what felt like hours but I noticed beau next to me and I could tell he wanted to hold her. Honestly I could see how much he wanted her to be his, how much he wanted us to be his family. I turned and smiled at him. "Wanna hold her?" He looked at me for reassurance and I nodded my head as I hand her to him. He embraced her into his arms and put his finger for her to grab. She looked into his eyes and scanned his face as he smiled and began to love this little baby. "What are you gonna name her?" He asked. "I never really thought about it, I figured I'd wait until I told landon." I seen his joy slip away as I brought up landon. He gave her back to me and I could see he was trying to stop himself from getting attached to her because she would never be his.

Nurses came in and out every few hours to help me feed. Beau would take shifts with me allowing me to sleep. The doctor notified me that we could leave in the next 24-48 hours as long as things were well. He also let me know to wait about a week or two before going on a "trip" for hours at a time. Things were pretty simple I mean now my world revolves around this baby. When she's hungry I feed, when she's tired I put her to bed, and when she wants to play I play. This little helpless human is now ruling my life😂.

*(1 week later)

Today was the day I would be leaving beau and everyone I've met here to go back to the place I once called home. I woke up and began packing all my clothes and the baby's things. The past week has been kinda rough but it's hard because I'm leaving someone I love. Someone that loves me more than words can explain but I know it's not meant to be. I took our bags to my car and met beau at the front door. "So this is it huh?" I looked at him. "Yea I guess so..." I could tell it was hurting him. "Take care of that little girl lay. She's going to become an extraordinary women just like her mother." I smiled. "Once everything is settled I'll get in touch. I'm so sorry for what I've put you through, I made your life so much more complicated." "Stop. Don't say those things they're not true. You've helped me grow and I'm happier than ever when I'm with you." I looked into his eyes and I heard the pain in his words. "I love you Beau." I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled myself into him. He opened up in my embrace. "I love you too lay." He let me go and I walked to the car and buckled the baby in her car seat before I headed to the front. I got in and put the car in reverse. Beau watched from the front step as a single tear dropped from his eyes. Before we could pull out of the driveway he rushed to the car. "C-can I tell her bye?" Tears we're rolling down my face, I nodded my head and he went to the back door. As he opened it the baby smiled and he held her little hand in his. "I love you little girl. Be good for your mom." He spoke softly before kissing her forehead and closing the door. Her big bright eyes staring at him as he walked to the front window. I rolled down the window and he kissed my lips one last time before walking away.

I had to pull over once I got 30 minutes out because I couldn't control my sobs. I couldn't  get myself under control. I just lost someone who truly loved me and that was extremely hard.