Badboy shadow

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Seemed like I was the only one who cared about this whole situation.

I ruffled my hair as I stopped the car infront of a traffic light.

This girl... I swear.. she makes my life much more complicated. She just stepped into my life and turned it upside down. Ofcourse I loved her. That's why I kissed Jacky.

I was an idiot for believing her.
She clearly told me that this would be our last kiss, and that she would back off forever.

But as soon as I kissed her, to end the hell she caused, she went back to tell Lee.

I love Lee and she is the only one.
And now I have to prove her.

My eyes pinned to the street I sped up.
Blood mixed with anger pumped through my vessels.

I promised myself, that I would get Lee back home, after I kicked YG's nuts and let Jacky experience hell.

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Y/N POV.
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"All the four of you are here for the same reason! YOU WILL NEVER BECOME SUCCESSFUL WITH THIS ATTITUDE!!"

our coach yelled at us.
I rubbed my temples, trying to focus.

We hadn't slept the last two days, we were practicing, recording and working. My last meal was 10 hours ago and it was nothing more than an apple.

Ofcourse we were tired and exhausted.

"Could we take a break... we hadn't eaten anything hours ago..."
I asked.

"You have no time to eat!!! Up your asses! Do the dance again!!!"
He yelled again.

My head was pumping and I had a hard time trying to keep my eyes opened. The other girls also seemed exhausted.

I performed the dance, step by step, the exact way we practiced it.

But he suddenly stopped the music and started yelling at me again.

"Are you kidding me?! What is this?! Listen, you are not performing on some silly kids birthday party!"

I bowed my head to apologize.

"AGAIN!!!"
He yelled.

We started over and over again.
Suddenly I felt a stinging pain in my head and my vision started to become blurry. I tried to focus but then my legs gave up and everything turned black.

The music stopped and my coach started yelling again, but these were the last things I could hear.

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"She collapsed because of her low iron and sugar level. She needs to rest. We gave her oxygen and an injection."

"Will she be okay?!"

"Let's see after she rested. You can call me just in case if something's happening."

"Yeah.. thank you.."

Then a sound of a closing door.

I slightly opened my eyes.

I sat up straight.
"Taeyhung?!"
I yelled.

He patted my head trying to calm me down.

"Sh... you need to take rest.."

I pushed the blanket away and stood up.
I stumbled a bit but I could control my body.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?!"
I kept on yelling.

The heat started rushing through my veins up to my cheeks.

Now he was standing too.
"I'm caring about you."

He answered.

"I don't need you to take care of me! I did it very well alone!"
I answered.

He huffed.
"Yeah ofcourse.."

"I didn't ask you to come!"
I threw back.

"And I didn't ask you to become an idol!!!"
He yelled all of the sudden.

"Listen! This is my life! I can do whatever I want! You shouldn't care about my decisions!!!"
I answered.

He raised an eyebrow.
"Then tell me, what is this-"

He took out the invitation to the auditions I got from his dancing coach.

I shrugged.

"Well you got this while we were together! You lied to me the whole ass time!!!"
He yelled.

I laughed in sarcasm.
"Okay, well why do you care?! This whole thing we had... was just a game until Jacky would return."

"Okay! I MESSED UP! I KNOW! But I kissed her not because of love or passion! I kissed her because she promised me that she would leave us alone forever! I KNOW That I was stupid for believing her and going into the deal but Lee please! YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE ME!! SHE PLANNED IT ALL!!!"

I could see a tear glancing in his eyes.

"I don't care anymore! It's over!"
I yelled back.

But then I lost the control and tripped.
Taeyhung rushed over to catch me and saved me from falling.

He was using the situation to get close to me again but I pushed him away.

"Stay in line superhero!"
I blurted.

"Admit it...you still love me."
He murmured.

I swallowed.
My eyes met his.

My heart felt ice towards him. It didn't tripped or pumped a marathon like it used to do... it just froze.

My mind brought me back to reality.
This is not a stupid fairytale or some sort of stupid teenage fanfiction.

This is reality.
He hurted me million times.
I came back every time but now it's enough.

I shook my head.
"No."

I didn't dare to look up.
"Come on Lee! How often do I have to tell you that I kissed her because of you!"

At this sentence the ice around my heart seemed to melt and the heat of anger turned it into a flames.

"DON'T ACT LIKE YOU DID ME A FAVOR!!!"

Heated tears of anger leaked down my eyes.

"YOU DON'T EVEN REGRET IT!!!"

He watched me sliding down at the wall.

He just stood there like an idiot not knowing what to do or say.

"I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU! LEAVE ME ALONE!"
I sobbed.

He seemed hurted by my words but I didn't care.

"Lee... I am sorry.. You are the only girl I love."
He confirmed.

"And the only one you hurt"
I choked on my tears and covered my face with my face palms.

"Lee don't cry..."
He whispered and took a step towards me.

"GO AWAY!"
I weeped.

He didn't listen and sat down beside me.

"I will get you out of there..."
He murmured.

"DON'T YOU DARE TRY TO INTERVENE YOUR LITTLE ASS SELF IN MY LIFE AGAIN!!!"

I yelled.

He stood up and head towards the door.

"I know what you are going through...but I won't stop until I have you in my arms."

Then he left the room.