Badboy shadow

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I crossed my arms and scoffed as he left the room.

It sickened me, that he was playing the "good guy" now.
Instead of crying I just wanted to throw up the apple I ate hours ago.

Even if he would change, I wouldn't go back to him would I?

I was on my way to the top of my career. There was no way that I would have time for a "relationship"
Neither then I wanted one.

I flinched by the sound of the door creek.

A nurse entered the hospital room, smiling at me.
"Oh Miss y/l/n... how are you feeling?"
She send me a warm hearted smile.

I returned the smile and nod.
"Much better...can I leave today?!"
I studied her surprised eyes.

"Not that fast young lady.."
She smiled again, slightly amused.

"The doctor has to make some test and check on you. Also you hadn't been eating for a while. We have to check on your mental health and we should observe your brain actions since you fell onto the floor... you bumped your head... don't you remember?"

I examined my head.
She was right. I could feel a heavy bruise at the back of my head.

I groaned.
"I guess I'm fine."

She shook her head.
"Not gonna happen."

She walked towards me and checked on my pupils.
Then she went in for measuring my pulse.

She sighed.
"Your appointment for the MRI scan is at 8pm. Downstairs....make sure to eat something... I will come back later and check on you."

I fell back down onto the bed.
The smell of disinfectant and a fresh washed bedding set crawled up to my nose.

It gave me chills and suddenly a repressed nostalgia came up to my mind.

It reminded me of my actual dream I always had. The dream of becoming a surgeon. Saving lives and making people happy.

It was my father who inspired me over the years. He was the one who set up the dream in me.
He used to teach me first aid.
He used to take me to conferences about medicine.

My father used to say that if it was possible, he would turn back in time and study medicine to become a surgeon.

I was fascinated by his wise words and the way he was passionate about medicine. I wanted to be like him.

I wanted to become a surgeon for him. I wanted to make him proud one day. I wanted to give back, what he gave me.

The day my dad disappeared, I sweared that I would become a surgeon. That day, I promised him that one day, he could watch me removing a brain tumor successfully and making the whole family happy.
I promised him that I would give them faith in live.

The day he disappeared my mother never left my side.
She was always supportive and she promoted me as hard as she could.
She bought me medicine books that I really wished for at my birthday and christmas.
Even though we were always short on money, she would always find a way to gift me.

And now she left me too.

A tear rolled down my cheek.

And that's what I am giving back?
I became a slut for the cameras.

I must had been a huge disappointment for my parents.

I knew that they were watching me from above and the fact that they always put effort in me made me feel even more guilty.

A year ago, I would never replace my dream with becoming an idol.
And now watch me.
Living in the castle changed me.
But not in a good way.

I was now the victim of an abusive control freak and I could do nothing about it.

"What am I supposed to do?!"
I whispered while watching up to the sky.

I knew that they were there.
I just wished they would be here and let me cry on their shoulders.
My mother would stroke my hair like she always did and my dad would tell me that there was a way out, we just had to look from another point of view.

I knew that this is what I had to do.
There was no place for me in the music industry.

Maybe I was good enough.
But that wasn't my dream at all.

Tae: are you serious?! She's at the edge of desperation and I'm not by her side?!

Me: I'm sorry... but you know... people don't share their inner feelings like they use to do in wattpad stories.. and I thought that it would be more realistic if I-

Tae: SHUT UP! I'm not with her and you should change that part!

Me: maybe you should change first and stop being an asshole all the time.

Tae: I'M NOT AN ASS... YOU TRANSFORMED ME INTO-

Me: Okay okay! I get it! Now calm your ass down...

Tae: What am I going to to in the next chapter...?

Me: Its a secret... ;)

Tae: I have some ideas... for example giving her flowers and kisses... also I could gift her with Gucci or maybe a little puppy. I heard that girls love puppy's...

Me: Tae please... I already have my plans for-

Tae: what about a huge chocolate cake with a letter hidden inside of it...

Me: I mean it's a good idea but as I already said I-

Tae: A RIDE TO THE OCEAN WITH A PICNICK!

Me: interesting but-

Tae: What do girls prefer... a little kitten or a sweet puppy?

Me: That's not the point... I-

Tae: Forget about it! I'll get her both!

Me: STOP IT ALREADY! YOU WILL SEE WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN SO COULD YOU PLEASE SHUT UP FOR NOW!?

Tae: No need to be so rude...

Me: Then stop talking and keep on reading!