Love at first Tiktok

Chapter 27- i hate seeing her like this.

Mattia

I felt like my entire world was collapsing when I saw emery in the canteen. She was talking to Jenna and I was watching incase a fight broke out. I wasn't expecting for her to suddenly freeze. Her chest was rising and falling at a fast pace and I could tell she was going to have a panic attack. She'd told me about them when I first started to get to know her. Plus , I'm observant.

I saw Jenna back away. Holly , a new student here. Went and stood behind Jenna as if she was scared. What the hell? I got Ida's attention and brought her up on the situation quickly. She knew about emery's anxiety aswell. I had almost forgotten about it. She hadn't felt anxious in such a long time.

I saw emery begin to walk out the cafeteria doors her hands on her head as if it was hurting her.

I just want to take her pain away

I hate seeing her like this.

I quickly got up and walked towards her. I didn't want to sprint because that would cause attention. I knew that emery didn't want attention. Which gladly she caught nobody's attention. She started walking faster and faster and completely out of the cafeteria.

"EMERY" I shouted for her as I exited the doors , I turned my head to see that she was headed outside. I didn't run because I didn't want her to feel startled. I know that when you hear someone coming towards or near you , your instinctively panic and try to get away. I wanted to be there for her , I didn't want her to run away.

I walked towards the doors that led outside , I wasn't far away when I saw her drop on the floor and let a loud scream of agony out into the cold January air.

That's when I ran. I ran like my life depended on it.

Emery had told me about what happens in one of her panic attacks and the different things that may happen. So I knew for a fact she couldn't hear me properly. She was too focused on the annoying ache in her body.

I shouted her name again and asking if she could hear me. I didn't wanna get too close incase she didn't want to feel trapped. I was cautious about what to do. I just knew I had to be there for her.

she nodded her head to me. She was taking quick breaths.

"When I have a panic attack one of the main things that happen is I start to hyperventilate, it's when I struggle to breathe and can't take long breaths. It's like a hiccup , you can't control it and it's annoying as hell" she chuckles

That whole memory came to mind when I saw what was happening in front of me. She tried to speak but her breaths wouldn't let her like a hiccup.

"I need m-mattia" she gasped for air as she sniffled.
I took two big steps towards her and wrapped my arms around her and told her I was here and everything was ok. She calmed down shortly after.

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Emery

It's been a few days since my panic attack. I've made sure to stay a distance from holly for now since she attracts vermin like Jenna who was the cause to my panic attack.

God the nasty girls in the UK aren't as bad as the girls over here. You rarely see anyone leaking someone's number , or doing..well...anything that Jenna has done.

I kinda just wish that I could go back you know? To my old life. Before the clout I got from tiktok. Before everything. Being a normal teenage girl who could do what any normal teen girl would do and nobody would care. I could be in my own bubble again.

I liked it like that.

I wish I could disappear from everyone around me.

Accept my friends obviously.

I seriously need a break from all of....well...this.

I need a break from New Jersey.

I ran down the stairs to see my parents sitting in the living room. I knew what I wanted to ask them.

"Hey mum , hey dad" I said with a smile on my face. The smile didn't reach my eyes though. It was a mask I'd learnt to hide the pain that my whole life had brought onto me.

"Hey em , is everything ok?" My mum asks , worry etched onto her face , see, she knows me better than anyone. She knows when I'm truly happy and when I'm actually sad.

"Yeah I wanted to ask you two something." I said , my hands clasped together on my lap as I took a seat on the couch. "so basically , I need a...let's just say a break from New Jersey. It's all abit too much, I wanna be in my own environment for a little bit. We kept the house back in England so I don't see problem with us going there for awhile" I said without taking a breath because I needed to get it across to them without getting distracted by the many things I was reminded about that I wanted to tell them. We needed to stick to the topic.

My mum had a warm smile on her face as she looked up in thought. "I don't see a problem with that. If it'll help your mental health to go back for abit then I don't see why you can't" my mum said , my smile was real this time. My dad nodded aswell "I would have to stay here for work but I don't see a problem with it either. We want you to be happy Em."

I squealed and jumped in excitement. I was going back to the UK for a little bit. Gosh I was exited. Maybe I could take my friends with me? Some of them are from the UK but they're not from Cheshire like I am. God I'm so happy right now I could burst!

Not literally ew

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A/N - we're going back to England , fun fact , I'm from Chester but I actually live in north wales , so emery will be visiting there quite often since it can be a lot quieter. Plus all the rivers will be frozen over so she'll love that. Thankyou for 13k! WOW , I didn't know I could even get to 1k back in December when I started writing this! I wanna thank all of you for voting and for reading! THIS ISNT PROOF READ YET SO DONT BULLY ME PLEASE AND FANKYOU.

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