Reaching for Happiness

Chapter 40

The boys were soon out of London and continuing their tour around the country. Me and Aston got back to normal pretty quickly after the Sara incident. Sara was kicked off the tour straight after what happened, so the dances had been altered slightly and some more dancers brought in. Me and Jaanvi had been to see the boys every night in London, and they put on an amazing show. It was the first time I'd seen them perform live, and I couldn't get enough of their gigs. Jaanvi and Oritsé were growing pretty close, which I thought was really sweet. He was always so protective over her, in a good way. I could really see them in a relationship together... Jaanvi was close to walking again. She could almost walk with a walking stick to help her, and her doctor had told her she was making speedy progress. My cast was unfortunately attached to me. I was having it removed in April, so only a few weeks left to wait. And there was also the baby thing, which I still hadn't managed to tell Aston.. I just couldn't do it. I couldn't break his heart! The only other person that knew apart from me was Marvin. I had nobody to talk to about it as Marvin was away all the time, and it was really getting me down. I was so emotional.

'Hey, Chloe!' Jaanvi called as we sat watching TV.

'Hmm?' I replied.

'Look at this, it's so sweet' she smiled, passing me a magazine. I scanned the title of the article she wanted me to read; Everybody In Love. I straight away knew it was about the boys. It was about me and Aston mainly, but there were also a few lines about Marvin and Nikki. As I read through it, I could feel a lump in my throat and tears forming in my eyes. The article mentioned our baby a lot, and what it could look like, and what traits it would have. I may never know those traits if it doesn't make it.. A tear slowly eased its way out of my eye and rolled down my cheek. I quickly wiped it away before Jaanvi saw it, but I didn't do it in time.

'Chloe, are you okay?' she asked me, sounding worried.

'Yeah' I sniffed.

'Are you sure? You've been quiet all week'

'I said I'm fine!' I snapped, before wheeling myself to my room so I could let my tears out. I climbed onto my bed and buried my face into my pillow and sobbed into it. I couldn't deal with this stress. I had to talk to somebody about it. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and called Marvin.

Me - C Marvin - M

M - Hello?

C - Marv, I can't do this.

M - Chloe? What's wrong?

C - EVERYTHING!

M - Chloe, calm down! Just tell me what's wrong...

C - I don't want to lose the baby

M - Chloe, I'm sure you and the baby will be just fine. You have told Ast haven't you?

(background)A - told me what?

M - Nothing Aston.

C - No, I haven't

M - I won't say anything

(background) A - About what? Is this something to do with me?

M - For fucks sake Ast, your so paranoid! Don't worry, its not to do with you.

C - Thanks Marv.

M - I'll call you tonight, yeah?

C - Okay. Bye..

Marvin hung up, and I placed my phone back in my pocket and snuggling into my pillow. I soon drifted off into a deep sleep, exhausted from all the crying.