Hey Angel - Harry Styles Series

Is it Right? - Part 51

Later that night you were getting ready for bed with Harry. The kids were both asleep and you were finishing up in the bathroom with your face wash and putting your hair up in a bun.

"So, we haven't really had a chance to talk about what happened with Jackson earlier." He says. "What happened?"

You sigh turning off the light in the bathroom and walking over to the bed. You climb in next to Harry and look down at your hands. "He doesn't want us to have a baby together." you say.

"I got that, but did he say why?" Harry asks.

"He did..." You nod.

"Y/N, please tell me. I've never seen him that upset before." He says.

"He's afraid that if we have a baby together that we're going to forget about him because he'll be the odd one out because his Mommy is different." You sigh.

"How could he think that? We both love him and he's my son, a part of me." He sighs sadly.

"He's young, but still has feelings. We just have to find a way to reassure him that we'll love him no matter what." You say. "You don't think.. I mean you don't think that Abby would have said something about this to him do you?"

"No, I mean, I don't think so. She would have no reason to." He says.

"Maybe when we all were having our issues earlier she might have something like that and forgot... Maybe she didn't really mean it but during that time, she did." You shrug.

"I don't know. I guess I could talk to her about it, but I just can't believe that he would honestly believe that I, his father, would just forget about him like that." He tears up a bit.

You sigh sadly moving over to sit in his lap. He wraps his arms around you and you wrap yours around him.

"He's my whole life Y/N, how could he ever believe that I wouldn't love him.. or that I would forget him." He sniffles into your chest.

You have no words, so you just kiss his head and hold on to him.

"And if she did say something to him, how could she be that cruel?" He whispers.

"I don't know." You whisper. "But we'll figure something out. We can talk to Abby about it and if she did say something we can maybe sit down with all of us or just the two of you and have a talk with Jackson."

"I just love him so much, baby and I love you so much that I want to have baby together, but I feel so torn." He whispers.

"Hey, we both have talked about that maybe right now isn't the best time for a baby anyway and we weren't even planning on getting pregnant anytime soon, so don't give up just left. I'm sure once we talk to him, he'll change his mind or once he's a bit older he'll understand that nothing will change in our feelings for him." You whisper.

Harry sighs. "I don't want you to take this the wrong way or that I regret my decision or anything, but sometimes I feel like I should have tried to make it work with Abby just for the sake of Jackson. I mean it's not fair to him that he has to live in two different houses and only gets to see me or his Mum a few days at a time. I feel like I let him down." He whispers.

You sigh rubbing his back. "I can see why you feel that way and I understand it, but you said it yourself that you didn't love Abby in that way to pursue a relationship with her. Quite honestly, if you would have forced yourself to stay with her, that might have done more damage to him than you two being apart. It would have bene fair to either you or Abby to be with someone that you didn't love and I'm sure you two would have been arguing over something that right there wouldn't be good for a child to see." You say.

"I know that, but still I hate being away from him and I'm sure he feels the same way." He whispers.

"Probably." You nod. "Maybe it will be nice for you and him to spend a day together, without Ella and I being there." You suggest. "It's been a while since you two have had a day just for yourselves."

"Hm. You're right. Maybe tomorrow we can just go do some lad things." He smiles.

"I'm sure he'll love it." You smile.

"I love you." He whispers. "I don't know what I would do without you."

"You'd be a miserable sap." you joke.

He laughs. "Yeah, I would be." He smiles.

"Now, let's get some sleep, it's late." you say climbing off his lap and laying down on the bed.

He nods and joins you. You smile wrapping your arms around him. "I love you." You whisper before the two of you fall asleep.

**

The next morning, Harry wakes up before you and walks into Jackson's room. He leans down and sits down on his bed and gently wakes up Jackson.

"Jackson, buddy, wake up." He whispers.

He mumbles and whines opening his eyes a little. "Daddy?" He mumbles.

Harry laughs a bit. "Yeah, so I know it's early, but how would you like to have a lads day with me today? Like a father son day just you and I?"

Jackson gasps and sits up happily. "Ya! Wet's go!" he says climbing out of bed and walking out of his room.

Harry laughs. "Wait, we need to get dressed first." He says.

Jackson giggles running back into his room."Oh, right." He laughs. He walks over to his dresser and pulls out some clothes.

Harry smiles when he sees the shirt that you had bought Jackson a few months ago to match with one of Harry's. Harry quietly got dressed in the same shirt and soon they both were on their way. Harry first took Jackson to get some breakfast at a local cafe. Jackson was making faces as he was eating his omelet and Harry couldn't help but laugh.

He missed this, his father and son time. It used to be just the two of them and then everything with you happened so fast. Even though he was happy with you and Ella and loved you both dearly and knew that Jackson loved you both as well, a part of him couldn't help but wonder if he had done the right thing by letting this relationship with you go forward as fast as he did.

Was being engaged to you and moving in together right now the best thing for his relationship with Jackson? As much as he loved you, he could never put you above his son. Harry didn't know the answers to the questions roaming around his head, but what he did know was that he was really going to have to think about where he was to go from here.