Hey Angel - Harry Styles Series

Promise to Try - Part 62

You were tossing and turning as best as you could with a pregnant belly while you were trying to sleep that night. The only thing you could think about was your fight with Harry and it didn't help that you were sleeping alone. You missed Harry's arms around you and the feeling of his warmth from being next to you.

You groaned laying on your back looking over at the empty space on the bed. As tired as you were, you knew that you wouldn't get any sleep until you talked this over with Harry. You throw back the blanket and scoot off the bed. You walk out of your room and down the hall to the guest room.

The door was closed and you really hoped it wasn't locked. When you turned the door knob, you were glad that it wasn't. You walked into the room and saw Harry holding a pillow to his chest as he slept. You hated to wake him up, but you needed to do this.

You went over to the bed and sat down next to Harry. You wrapped your arms around him and kissed his back. Harry quickly turned around and looked at you with red, puffy, sleepily eyes.

"What's wrong? Are you okay?" He asked. "Is it the babies?"

"No, no, the babies are fine," you whispered. "But I'm not okay."

"What's wrong?" He whispered.

"I can't sleep," you whispered. "We need to talk about our fight."

He sighed nodding as he sat up against the headboard.

"I want you to be honest with me," you whispered. "Why did you really leave and would you.. would you really want to be here with me if it wasn't for the accident or the babies?"

He sighed looking over at you. "Yes, I would. When I left, I had every intention of coming back and being with you."

"It didn't seem like it. You just left and gave me a bullshit reason. I get that Jackson's your son, but by choice, Ella's your daughter and you just left her, leaving me to pick up the pieces," you whispered.

"I know and I felt really bad about it. It broke my heart, but I just needed to time to think about things," he said.

"Away from us, like we were part of the problem," you said.

"But you weren't and I'm sorry I made it seem that way, I really am. Can you ever forgive me?" He sniffled.

"That's the problem. I do forgive you, but you really hurt me and Ella. I just don' think I can go back to how everything was before, not right now at least," you sniffled.

"Do you want me to leave or move into this room?" He whispered.

"I think it might be best for the next few days, but I can stay in here, I don't mind," you said.

"No, no, I'll stay in here. You need the better bed," he whispered.

You nodded looking down at your belly. Harry reached over to take your hand.

"I love you, Y/N and I'm sorry for how I handled things," he said.

"I know you're sorry and that you love me. I just don't know if you're in love with me anymore," you whispered.

He looked over at you, completely heartbroken. " I am in love with you, so fucking much baby," he cried.

"I wish I felt it," you said quietly before getting off the bed and heading back into the bedroom.

**

Over the next few days, things were pretty awkward between you and Harry. You two were cordial, but if it felt like you were living with a friend instead of the love of your life.

You knew that Harry was sorry and you knew that he loved you, but the fact that he had just left so quickly without even a second thought scared you. You knew he wasn't Simon, but now they had something in common.

They both left you and Ella.

You were sure that the kids noticed things were a bit different between the two of you, but they never asked any questions, so you hoped that maybe they didn't think anything of it.

You were going through some of Ella's old baby clothes seeing all what you could use for the new baby girl. You sniffle sitting on the bed, holding the outfit Ella was brought home from the hospital. You were crying for many reasons, but mostly you were crying thinking about how you felt on that day.

You were happy that your baby girl was going home, but you were scared and upset that her father wasn't going to be there. Even though you never were really in love with Simon, him cheating and leaving when he found out you were pregnant, that hurt you.

You were feeling the same way now that you did then.

Harry had just put the kids down for a nap and was walking past the bedroom when he heard you crying. These last few days had been hard on him because he didn't know how to express how much he was in love you, more than he already did, or at least he thought he did.

And now hearing you crying, he felt his break even more. It was hard being around you, but not being able to kiss you when he wanted or to hold you. He knew that you needed space, but giving someone space when they were practically right next to you, was extremely difficult.

Harry walked into the bedroom and saw you clutching a little girl's onesie. He sat down on the bed and looked over at you.

"I was going through some of Ella's things when she was a baby. I thought we could reuse some for the new baby," you whispered. "This was her home from the hospital outfit."

Harry took it from you and smiled. "I bet she looked so adorable in it."

"She did," you nodded. "When I came across that, I just started thinking about everything that happened with Simon and how much it hurt me, you know? And I think that's why I'm so hesitant to go back to how we were because when you left, it put me back in that place again, but this time is even worse because of how much I love you compared to whatever I felt for Simon. And I'm scared that you just up and left once, that you might do it again. Maybe not anytime soon, but maybe one day."

Harry sighed sadly. "And that's my fault. I told you I never would do anything like that to you and Ella, and I did. If I could go back, I would definitely take it back if I could. I can tell you that I'm not going to leave you ever again and after last time, I'm sure you won't believe me, but all I can do is just continue to prove and show you that I won't do that ever again. I just need you to give me the chance to do that," he whispered.

"I know," you said. "and I'm going to try, I promise."

He nodded. "Thank you."

"And we can start by you moving back in," you smiled.

"Really?" He asked. "Are you sure?"

"Yes, I miss you and I just needed space for a few days," you smiled.

He smiled putting his forehead on yours. "I've missed you too," he whispered.

You smiled leaning in to kiss him. He smiled into the kiss and took your face in his hands before deepening the kiss.

"The kids are taking a nap," he whispered pulling back from the kiss a bit.

"Good," you giggled moving the basket of clothes to the floor and pulling him down on the bed with you. He wrapped his arms around you and you scoot as close to him as possible before the two of you fall asleep in each other's arms.