Identity || Shoto Todoroki x Villain Reader

Chapter Forty Three - Understanding

Your POV

Nothing has really changed since then. I don't know what to do with these feelings. Yes, maybe I should confront them and I've tried, I've tried many times but each time I end up back to this state.

I'm trying to strong, but all I do is pretend because I feel so helpless. I really don't know what I'm doing here or what my purpose is. Who am I now, is the question always on my mind, but I can't find the answers. It constantly feels like I'm suffocating here. And I don't want to hear that it's a part of the growing. I'm sick of this pain... sick of this. So tell me the answers.

I just want the answers to all this. But no one has them... no one else is like me. No one is the daughter of villain trying to live among "regular" people. Why can't I come to terms with that? I'm always trying to find someone who understands but no one truly understands. Does anyone understand? Would anyone understand? Could anyone understand?

I held hands with Shoto on our little stroll around a park. Not even you do.

I sighed heavily. Shoto turned his head to me.

"Hey, you okay?" He asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine," I said.

Instead of holding only one hand, he took my other hand and looked at me. "I don't know much about anything going on with you and I understand that and I respect you. I just wanted you to know that you're doing great."

I impulsively stood on my toes and place a kiss on his lips. I hadn't heard true words of affirmation in so long. When I realized what I did I pulled away and apologized.

"Sorry. Sorry. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to-"

"It's okay. It's okay." Shoto said. We were suppose to be going slow and I rushed the whole our first kiss back together thing. We just stood there not knowing what else to say. I stole a few glances at him. I guess he did the same because our eyes met and we both looked away.

Shoto exhaled, "We should probably head back."

"Yeah..." We walked back to the dorms. Shoto held the door for me to enter before walking in after me. "I've been thinking, I want to go on a date like an actual date with you. I know how you feel about being out in public, we don't have to if you don't want to."

"No, it's okay... but I'm only going to be available tomorrow but you have training tomorrow too."

"Tomorrow, I get out around six. So I'll plan it out, we can go somewhere at seven and be back by ten."

"Okay, seems like a plan." I placed a kiss on his cheek and headed upstairs to my room to relax. Now that heroes from all across Japan are investigating all properties connected to the Shie Hassaikai and desperately trying to Eri, I had a way smaller amount of workload.

The next day, I got ready to go out with Shoto. I wore black, high-waisted, wide-legged blacks with a white long sleeve, off-the-shoulder shirt.

I went down to the main floor where everyone always was. I got a lot of "ooo"'s from my classmates.

"Well, well, well, where are you going?" Kaminari purred.

Sero used his tape to pull him away from me.

"Out with Shoto. I'm just waiting for him t-" The elevator dinged, I turned my attention to Shoto in slacks and a button up shirt. The level of hot Shoto was should be illegal.