Identity || Shoto Todoroki x Villain Reader

Chapter Thirty - Worry

Your POV

"So, (F/n)," Mrs. Matsu said, "What was going on in your head when you saw him?"

"I thought it was just me imagining him, I was trying to convince myself he wasn't but then the next thing I know. He knock me to the ground and I was being carried away. I was scared. All I could think was I want Shoto and Aizawa to come save me."

"And what happened after that?" Mrs. Matsu asked.

"I was out cold. When I started regaining consciousness again. I heard Shoto's voice and my dad put me down. He gave me a choice, I could go with him or I would face judgment like everyone else. When I asked him what was the difference he said he didn't have the heart to kill his own family."

"Okay, let's stay here for a second. How did it make you feel?"

"At the moment angry, but now confused," I answered.

"What are you confused about?" Mrs. Matsu asked me.

"I've always painted my dad as some heartless monster. But hearing him say he didn't have the heart to kill me was the first compassionate thing I've ever heard him say to me. It made him much more human. Although he does kill people it's with the purpose of helping society in his eyes. But I never thought of him as a human being left alone a selfless one." I explained.

"Are you still scared of him?"

"I think I am more than I was before. Now he said that I was going to be judged like everyone else that I was no longer his daughter. He won't hesitate to kill me if I don't line up with his ideology."

"Remember what we talk about: He can't hurt you."

"I know, but he broke out of prison and did. How do I know he won't again?" I doubted.

"(F/n), he's in a maximum security prison, they used upgraded their system so it's five times stronger. He won't be getting out."

"I hope you are right." I sighed.

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"Is there anything else you want to talk about? Any concerns? Feelings?"

"I don't think I'm ready to face everyone." I admitted. "Like Aizawa, Shoto, Mom, Hitoshi, and my other classmates were acting like everything was fine and back to normal but I don't feel like it is. And I don't think I can face the kids in the orphanage after this."

"Why is that?"

"They all witnessed my fight. I wasn't even (F/n) in that moment. All I could think is I want to kill my father and not about their safety. And the kids I keep talking about a better life but doesn't feel like I am living a better life. In fact, I'm more scared now then I was before. I'm a walking let down."

"Is that the facts talking or is that your anxiety talking?"

"Anxiety..."

"Okay, so can you tell me the fact of the matter."

"Okay.. Facts: My classmates said that they were happy to see that I was okay. Shoto and Aizawa were the first to come on their own and Hitoshi followed soon after. My staff came to visit me with gifts. The kids from the orphanage sent me letters and pictures."

"So what's really making you feel that way?" Mrs. Matsu asked. "Because I think we both know it's not the people around you."

"I don't remember much from the fight. But I remember having my father's blood on my hands... I was going to use his quirk but I ended up not doing it. I was so close to and everything I worked not to do almost happened. And all I could think about was Toshihiko."