Part Of Me. *COMPLETED*

Friends?

Sian's Pov-
I woke up and harvey was fast asleep with his head on my chest.
wake up harv I whispered.
Morning beautiful he whispered back to me. I smiled and rested my head on the soft pillow behind my head wishing i could stay here with him forever. Harvey lifted his body off mine and looked at me in the eyes before sleepily kissing me and resting his head on my shoulder with his lips against my neck. It sent shivers up my spine, he knows my weak spots already.
I don't want to moveeee.. Harvey groaned in my ear, I didn't want to move either but it was a Friday, and we had our project due.
Come on get up i insisted.
Fine. harvey mumbled getting off me and sitting on the end of the bed.
I got ready for school, and me and harvey left for school hand in hand.
I don't know if harvey sees us as a "couple" we haven't said were together but we're not exactly just friends. I don't know how to bring it up to him, we haven't spoke about it so I don't know how he feels about me. Hardly anyone knows we're even friends. I guess everything is like this big secret.
I wanted to tell him my secrets.
Then he became one.
Hey you okay? Harvey asked me as I was gazing into nothingness.
I'm good I said said forcing a smile.
Okay I'll see you later harvey said winking at me and walking to his locker. See you.. I whispered.
I couldn't get my head around it, are we friends or are we more?
Erin walked over to me and gave me a hug so I hugged her back.
Hey you okay? She asked me smiling.
I'm good. I say smiling back.
Hey so we're was you last night?
What do you mean?
Well we usually have a chill night on Thursday night, you know.. Me you hannah chloe bailey grace and kyle?
Oh shit I completely forgot! I'm sorry!
It's okay!! Don't worry about it so we're was you?
Harveys..
All night?
All night....
Really? So are you guys like a thing now?
Honestly I don't know erin.
Do you want to talk about it? Come to mine after school me hannah chloe and grace are having a sleepover.
Okay I need some girly time anyway.
Okay great see you later.
Bye erin.
I walked to science to meet harvey so we could give Mr Langford our project, I can't wait for this day to be over so I can have some time away from harvey and some time with my girls. I sure do miss them.
Harveys Pov-
Sian's been avoiding me all day. I don't know what I've done? She's been giving me the cold shoulder all day. I thought things were going good in our relationship. We'll sort of a relationship. I don't know what we are.. Maybe that's the reason she's pissed at me, but honestly I don't know myself. I should ask her.
Bailey came over to me.
B- hey man you coming Kyles tonight?
H- what's going on?
B- chilling at Kyles for the night you game for it? His brothers just got home to, it should be a fun night.
H- yeah why not I don't have plans with sian so yeah.
B- are you guys a thing now man?
H- I don't know, things are a bit bumpy at the moment.
B- well meet us at Kyles at 8 it will get your mind of stuff.
H- yeah I will see you then.
Sian's Pov-
I walked home packed my stuff and headed to Erins to meet the girls, I needed a good girl night to sort myself out and at least harvey wouldn't be there to send my thoughts wild.
I headed to erins and grace answered the door i hugged her and then we went into the living room with the rest of the girls and put on a film. After the film finished grace insisted that we go over to Kyles house to say hi to his brother who just got home from holiday. I agreed, I mean it's not like Harveys going to be there right?
We all walked over to kyles and grace knocked on the door. He let us in and I said hello to Bailey who I noticed was standing awkwardly by the stairs.
S- what's up with you? I laughed.
B- haha, nothing im just going to the kitchen I'll brb.
S- okay? I said astonished that he would make such a lame excuse up to avoid conversation with me.
SHES WHAT!? I heared coming from the kitchen in a tone that I recognized.
Harvey came out of the kitchen door and I stood there frozen. How could he be here? I've been trying to avoid him and he's here!?
H- hi..
S- hi..
H- can we talk or something?
S- Id rather not.
H- well it looks like your all staying here the night so you can't avoid me forever.
I looked to see everyone but me and harvey watching a film on the couch and eating pizza.
S- there's nothing to talk about. I said walking in and sitting next to chloe who was leaning against bailey. Harvey followed me in and sat next to Josh, Kyles brother who is very attractive. There both identical twins but Josh had freckles on the side of his face that's how you can tell the difference between them. Dirty Dancing was on the TV, everytime they kissed I imagined it to be me and harvey, how I missed his kisses. But to him they obviously meant nothing. How could I be so stupid to think he would like me? I looked down and played with my fingers something I only do when I think about him.
Harveys Pov-
Everytime they kissed I thought about me and sian, she makes me feel so alive, so amazing and positive and to know ive hurt her well it sucks. I miss her touch and her hugs and kisses they meant so much to me. Why can't I have her. Why does fate make something so perfect seem so impossible? After the film finished Bailey had an idea to play truth or dare. We all sat down on the floor in a circle and Bailey started the game off.
Sian's Pov-
Truth or dare Bailey said to harvey. I looked up and harvey who also looked at me. Truth harvey replied not taking them beautiful blue green shaded eyes off me. Is the person that you love in this room? Bailey asked.
Yes. Harvey replied fiddling with his fingers one thing he does when he's nervous or embarrassed.
Truth or dare chloe asked james. Dare james replied smirking. I dare you to kiss joshes foot chloe replied. James blushed obviously not expecting that dare james kissed joshes foot and everyone laughed erin looked disgusted:')
Truth or dare grace asked me.
Dare I replied.
I dare you to kiss Josh.
Harvey looked down.. I don't know why he did that if we're just friends.. I obviously mean nothing to him. I looked Josh in the eyes and kissed him he kissed me back, and I felt nothing at all no fireworks or butterflies nothing like when harvey kisses me. We stopped playing the game and I went to get a drink from the kitchen, Bailey followed me in.
B- what was up in there?
S- what?
B- I thought you and harvey where a thing? You've crushed him.
S- don't you start Bailey! He just used me he feels nothing for me.
B- no that's what you keep telling yourself.
Bailey walked out of the kitchen and I stood there shocked replaying his words in my brain part of me believing that it was true.
Harveys Pov-
When grace dared sian to kiss Josh I knew what was coming. I couldn't bring myself to look at another persons lips on my girls. How could I be so stupid to make her think that she means nothing to me? My whole body hurts ive never felt this way before. I sat on the stairs with my head in my hands crying to myself when I heard Sian's voice.
S- harvey?
I looked up to her she had bloodshot eyes.
S- say something?
H- what's there to say.
S- so that's it? That's all you have to say?
H- you already think I don't care about you so there's nothing to say.
S- because you act like you don't care!
H- your the one who just kissed another guy Infront of my face!
S- why would u be bothered? Seriously harvey you need to decide what you want I can't keep being your friend when I'm madly in love with you! One minute were friends. Then we're more than friends. Then sometimes I'm a complete stranger to you!!
H- I want you!! That's all I want!!
S- then show me!!
H- lets go back to my place.
S- okay.
I grabbed her hand interlocking my fingers with hers and took her to my house. My parents weren't home so we went to my room.
Sian's Pov-
After arguing harvey took me to his house. We went to his room and laid on his bed whilst he fiddled with my hair. We began to kiss and his arms moved to my waist, I felt secure in his arms I felt like I could do anything with him. He kissed my neck sending shivers down to my toes. He took of his jacket and threw it on the floor and he laid on top of me securing my whole body.
H- we don't have to do this.
S- I want too.
I pulled the blanket over our heads and our bodies were in perfect time with each other. Harvey breathed heavily down my ear and rested his head on my chest for a moment then looked up at me and kissed my lips. The sun started to rise and I fell asleep to the beating of his heart against mine. Everything felt okay again.