Different Perspective: Silent Conversation

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"I’ve always loved reading and writing since I was young, I also have a deep love for science, and I’m a Muslim. I am sincerely proud and love Islam. A weird fact, I don’t have sensitivity in my teeth so I can bite ice-cream"

This religion has me in shackles of submission, I long for the blissful nights where my heart can feel at ease with the things I have accomplished.

But I am faced with nights of heavy tears and light burdens, with nights I wait for Allah to hear my pleas; hands bent in front of me and prayers that never leave my mouth but are carried by my tears.

I am at war with this religion its beauty and teaching surpasses what I can comprehend, yet guilt consumes me at every turn and I am once again returned to a position of pain, arrogance and misunderstanding.

You say call upon you and you shall answer but what if I’ve lost the words to say or the person to call. If you could hear Yunus in the darkness of the night, the darkness of the sea and the darkness of the whale, then I relinquish my doubts.

At times I wonder if you have abandoned me the way the world seems to, every time I ask of it guidance.
Life has become so,
Tedious

But you, ya Allah I never grow tired or weary and I always seem to linger on to your name, especially when all the world is shrouded in darkness.

If my sins in weight exceeds that of the earth then to whom would I raise my hands to,
Except you
Except you

When I am lost and all the roads are bleak then only your blessed book can guide me and when the hours have been counted and I am due to return to my maker.

Whose name would I declare,
but yours
but yours


- Shakira Adelakun

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