Oh fuck, I'm drunk, I thought looking in the mirror, and I looked like a fucking mess too. I needed to go to bed. I'd had enough.
I'd better go and tell Becca I was going to bed so she doesn't have a shit fit when she realises I'm missing.
I flicked the lock and opened the bathroom door. Matt was standing there.
Jesus Christ, he's everywhere, I thought to myself.
"Sorry, I didn't realise you were waiting." I told him.
"That's fine." He said smiling.
I smiled and started to head out the door when he grabbed me, pushing me backwards back into the bathroom and slamming the door.
His lips found mine and I wrapped my arms around his neck.
Oh god, kissing him was......was what?
He lifted me up onto the bathroom cupboard.
Kissing him was everything.
I kissed him back, neither of us said a word and I could feel his hands burning through my dress.
What the fuck was I doing? He was here with another women and we were making out in the bathroom.
"No." I said putting my hands on his chest and pushing him away.
"What?" He asked, looking at me.
"I'm not doing this again, it was a one off, no more."
"Not doing what?"
Oh that fucking good looking prick, I thought reaching out and pulling him back to me.
We started kissing again and I couldn't help it, I wrapped my legs around his waist, as our kissing continued.
Stop, I told myself, you need to stop this.
"I'm not doing this again." I murmured against his lips.
"Doing what?" He murmured in between kisses.
"I'm not sleeping with you again."
"That's fine." He kept kissing me.
"I'm going to bed."
"Go to bed." He whispered.
Oh I wanted to go to bed, with him, but I wasn't going too, I wasn't going to be a slut and fuck him while his date waited downstairs.
I gently pushed him back and got off the cabinet.
"Goodnight." I told him. "You should go back to your date."
"What, no." He started, but I didn't wait for him to finish, I walked out and went straight to my room.
I ripped off my dress and pulled on my pyjamas, silently cursing myself.
I was upset with myself but mostly I was upset with him for bringing another girl.
Fuck me, I thought laying down, I had feelings for him.
It sucked.
