I just sat there, more than a little shocked, he wanted to be with me.
I looked at him, he picked up his fork and started eating.
I needed to say something but my mind was blank, jumping up and down screaming would be a little too much.
He looked at me. "Maybe we should wait."
Wait, wait for what?
"A few weeks, let you get over that dickhead."
I was over him, I was way over him.
"Then if you want too maybe you and I could start going out."
Oh I wanted too.
"I think you just need some time by yourself, it'll be good for you. You can sort out your feelings."
I didn't want to wait a few weeks. I mean what was a few weeks? To me it was two, what if it was five or six to him?
"A few weeks?" I tentatively asked.
"Yeah just so you can work things out."
I didn't need to work things out.
Instead of saying it I just nodded my head. It was going to be a very long few weeks. He was being so sweet about it, I fell for him even more, he really was a genuinely great guy.
But if I thought he was a great guy, didn't other girls? What if he met someone in these few weeks, what then? I was already crazy about him, it wasn't a rebound, it really wasn't.
"You ready?" He asked.
I nodded standing up. I wanted to say so much but I couldn't find the words.
We walked silently back to his car and on the drive back my mind started thinking. It was always a bad thing when I started thinking.
What if this was his way of letting me down gently? What if there was no few weeks and he was just using it as an excuse, a way to tell me that nothing will happen between us?
We pulled up out the front of Jim and Becca's and I quickly opened the door, now I just wanted to get away from him, now I was convinced he'd just given me the biggest line of bullshit I'd ever heard.
"I'll call you." He told me.
I nodded quickly and shut the door. Fuck.
I got into my car, there was no way I was going inside to be questioned by Becca, I couldn't cope. Instead I'd keep busy and do what I'd originally planned, find a job and somewhere to live.
Did he really like me? I asked myself over and over.
I'd never been so confused in my whole entire life.
