Absence of a father's love 💔

part 2

Dad: What did u just say? Now u will ruin your life. The reputation of the family will lose. U will live like a beggar. What a wonderful daughter I have. What have I done in my earlier life to have a disrespectful daughter who doesn't fulfil their parents wishes. I told u because it is for your welfare. U r just a child. What will u know about the world. I have lot of experiences than u. U should know that.
Me: ok let me be honest baba,if I choose science and failed in my board (12th) exams as I am already weak in it, will u be responsible for that. For my loss having no future,everything. I know u all wanted me to score high marks in the board exams. Pls give me a reply about this question? U r my own father yet u don't understand your own daughter's feelings. U yourself, baba are also weak in maths so please at least understand my weakness. It's my future so I also have the right to decide it. Just at least give me your permission as a parent. It's the least I can seek from u. And above all, u ,baba are also a humanities student. U studied law in your graduation and post graduation. How can u underestimate your own subject?

Dad: it all depends on hard work. U r lazy and trying to get an excuse. I did give u permission to change your subject from gradation. At least gain some science knowledge upto 12th. It's very important in life. R u going to become a slave or jobless person if u r going to study arts. It's only for weak students. U also r weak but still if u should choose science then u can easily have a bright future. How can u be so stubborn and foolish in such a situation like this?
Me: oh so telling my weakness means making an excuse for being lazy. Wow just wow baba. If I got no interest on that subject how is it my fault? Yes I m a weak student and I promise that I will prove that u r wrong. U don't know Humanities has more streams for jobs. I don't mean that science is bad. Since I m weak in it, I just want to study which I liked from Childhood. U can ask Chemsi(my cousin sister who has finished post graduation in biology at Miranda college,Delhi) for advice about humanities if u r not satisfied on my carrier or subject choice on the phone. Please at least give me a chance.
Dad calls her and had a conversation about half an hr.
After an hr later...
Dad: Fine u can choose humanities. But I won't consider u as my own daughter really. I won't support u from now on. U can roam wherever like an orphan child. She told me that since U r going to pursue graduation in Humanities. It will be more appropriate if u choose arts from now and it will be useless if u choose science now. She also told me if u r going to convert from science to arts in college,they will deduct 5ms from the total percentage as a rule. Wow!I will be seeing a failure in my house from that
Me: I told u.... And I promised that I will get high marks in my exams and I won't disappoint u guys.
Dad: in your dreams... I don't care for that stupid subject.
At 🌃night time
Dad comes drunk at home after the conversation.
Bang 💥💥💥.
Mom: what's that?
Me: I think I heard books banging or something.
When I came to the living room I saw all my books thrown and scattered everywhere.
Dad: U DAUGHTER OF A BITCH, GET OUT OF MY SIGHT. U R NOT MY DAUGHTER ANYMORE TAKE AWAY ALL THIS BOOKS FROM THIS HOUSE RIGHT AWAY THIS INSTANT. U R AN ORPHAN(lamjasara) FROM NOW ON. LOSER..
I cried silently and quickly picked up the books and went to the chamber and locked up myself and cried the whole night. Then, I wrote down to my diary the bitter memories about that incident.
I asked to God what harm have I done to everyone to deserve all of this. I promised myself I will show him who I am. Then the night passed and I went to sleep after crying a lot...
The next day..
I asked my mom that I want to go to tuitions for my subject then my Father heard and said...
Dad: Going tutions on humanities u make me laugh haha. No students of humanities does not go to tutions or coaching ,people will laugh at u. Even in my time no one goes to tution at my time also. Just read on your own. A lazy girl like u always want excuses throughout her whole life. I will tell u, u won't become a successful person. Mark my words. And also I won't pay for your books, tutions,school fees everything as I already told u that I won't be supporting u anymore unless it is science... Ask your mom or something,u won't get anything from me. Your brother and u r different. He is an engineer student who understands a father's desire.
Me: u don't have to hurt me again and again with your harshful words ok. I never asked u about my tutions fees or anything. I have my own mother on my side. If u don't support me at least please remain silent instead of hurting me. U r not suitable of becoming a father if u always hurt your own daughter like this. U just heard and interrupt in our conversation. Support your own son if u like. I don't care at all.
At night...
He came drunk again
Dad: I should have aborted u before u were born. Or killed u just after u were born.It would have been a lot better. Daughters are useless. We should not spend money on our daughter. They will just leave their parents after they get married. Our son will take care of us when we get old. Right mother (to my mom)
Mom:.....(silent)...
I couldn't hear the conversation anymore. So I went to the chamber room as usual,locked up myself and cried. I wish I wasn't born. It would be better if they had aborted me earlier instead of hurting me like this almost everyday.
I promised to myself that when I got a job,I will treat my mom to my best level even after I got married from that day.