Absence of a father's love 💔

part 5

Actually I usually don't have good relationship with most of my cousins. Only with maybe 1 or 2.... (Bro Agu n bro Sanjoy). N my sibling brother. Only my old aunt's children ,especially her daughter (sis Taruna) really loved me n treated me like her own sister. She cared me n treated me food n bought me dresses etc. She is a fashion designer at kolkata,India. But now she is married to a non local resident at kolkata n settled there with her own family. His brothers also treated me really well. But all of them r now married n have their own lives.hence i became all alone.
Real story begins.
When i was young n also even now, they(my cousins) never called me when they hang out,travel,gathering,picnic,eat ing food,etc. They always left me out as i m the youngest so they always dominate over me. I can't even talk back to them cuz they r my elders n it would mean disrespecting them Although they treated me like a shit. There r total of 13 cousins in our house. N most of them hated me. They said i m greedy,selfish,rude, over smart. Above my father's treatment i didn't have good relationship with my own cousins. There was no one by my side to share my feelings, confort me. They even hide their food itentionally when they bought it to prevent me from seeing it. They never called me when they have a party. I know it's for adults which include drinking. For this part i m very grateful because I don't wanna end like them.. but when they eat food n only called my other cousins except me really it pains my heart. Our family being poor, they mocked us n treates us like insects. They even mocked me silently when i choose humanities . They r always ready to mock or criticize me on my every single step n to point out my mistakes. So i had to work my ass hard to show everyone. I had no other choice than this really. If i have good achievements in my results something , they would always interrogate me as if they care even though they r not while during ny hard times they didn't even lend me a hand hah. I will assume that they r jealous of me lol 😎🔥(savage me). Even my 2nd uncle's children would laugh at my mom selling cosmetic at a small shop. Because we were staying under their rooftop as we r not ready to built our own bouse immediately they would treat us like shits. (Father's generation r usually like this ie, toxic i won't deny this starting from my own father).Yet we didn't have the heart to complain cuz we helpless n hopeless now. Even if they read this story part n hated me more. I don't fucking care. Because its your attitude towards me that let me write this painful stuff. It really breaks my heart when u treat your sister as an animal . It also breaks my heart when my friends started talking about having sweet cousin relationship while i never got any love from my side .... only 2 of the cousin brothers that i have mentioned above loved me n treated me like a real sister. They would always help me when i requested them to help me during my hard times. So i really m lucky to have only them despite the others. I really regard them as my own brother. I m really grateful to them for the love they shower to me as a real sister. They even help me fetch me from tution place at times when my alcholic father refused to fetch me home, While others doesn't even care about me. Feeling of loneliness follows. But still i got good close n some good exo n Bts Army family members also.
Ok now my real childhood startes from here.

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