one direction boyxboy one shots

Lirry part 2

Continuation of the one where Harry uses Liam.

LIRRY

LIAMS POV.

Harry tried to apologize. But every time he got so much within a arms distance I bolted for the nearest exit.

The worst part is I would forgive him, if he got close enough to apologize. That's the reason I don't come near 

I tried to look happy. Hell sometimes I actually forgot about what he did and I am actually happy. I have a girlfriend. Her name is Hilary. She is gorgeous, no beautiful actually. She has medium length wavy blond hair with piercing blue eyes. Her personality fit perfectly with mine. She hardly had any flaws. She only had one.

She wasn't him.

Ever since that night, he is always on my mind. I don't want him there especially after what he did. 

"Babe?" Hilary interrupted my thoughts.

Shit. I was thinking about him again. Like always.

"Thinking about him again?" 

One thing I forgot to mention. Hilary is my fake girlfriend. She knew everything I felt with Harry and agreed to help me get over my feelings.

I just simply nodded.

She pulled my head so it was resting on her lap and she massaged my head. Why can't I love her? Why do I still have this crush on him! This is not normal. 

"Uh, um Liam we have that um interview in 10. See you umm out there." I heard that familiar Cheshire accent say. 

I did not need this interview. I did not need to hear his voice. I did not need any of this right now. I just want all this shit to end.

 I heard the door close. I looked up to Hilary. "I really have to go don't I?"

She smiled down at me and nodded, "You probably don't want to hear this but you should listen to his apology."

"I can't Hilary, every time I see his smile I think back to that night when he kissed me.. Every time he talks I think back to him moaning. Every time I hear him laugh I think back to him laughing at me to Lou, calling me disgusting. Hilary, I just can't win. I hate that I like him, I hate even more that I think I love him."

She kissed me softly on the lips, a thing she did to calm me down. I closed my eyes and inhaled and exhaled. I removed myself from her and hugged her tightly before  walking out to the interview. 

HARRYS POV

"-----Every time I hear him laugh I think back to him laughing at me to Lou, calling me disgusting. Hilary, I just can't win. I hate that I like him, I hate even more that I think I love him." I hear Liam say.

I was coming back to tell him that Paul needed him ASAP. I was about to knock on the door and I heard him say that. He can't and should not love me. I should be unlovable. I am a horrible person. I am told that every single day by at least one person. None of the guys even talk to me anymore. Occasionly Louis, but even then he only says a couple of words. 

How do I apologize without him running away?

How do I get my friends back?

How do I get my life back?

Most importantly...

How do I tell Liam I love him back?

Yeah call me a horrible person. I already know that. I just.. do you know the saying you don't know what you got until it's gone? 

Well that is the motto of my life right now. 

Shortly after Liam and the boys shut me out I started thinking about the memories I shared with Liam..

"Harryyyyyy please sit next to me!" Liam whined like a baby.

I moved over to next to him and he pulled me on his lap. I blushed, I have no idea why but I did.

Well now I know why I blushed.

"You know you are very handsome Harry, no wonder all the ladies love you."

"Your not so bad yourself Li. I know the ladies love me but they just love me for my looks, I want someone to love me for me."

Who would have guess that person would have been him. Well not anymore but he did like me, and I ruined that chance.

"--Whats not funny is that I actually had a crush on you! You are a disgusting human being and I hate you."

Right then and there I knew I loved him. If some random girl had said that to me, like some had, I would have shook it off and went back to my normal day life. But when Liam said it, when he said he hated me my heart shattered in my chest. That has never happened. EVER. 

I have to apologize and tell him how I feel, I know he will never confess he still loves me and I dont want him to, but I want him to know. He has a right to know.

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"Liam, can I talk to you?"

"I uh have to go" he tried to walk past me like all the many times before, but unlike those times I blocked the exit.

"Let me, let me talk."

"I uh really uh really have to go." he was breathing heavy.

"No. You are not getting away. Don't even scream either, the boys are not here."

He sat back down on his bed and rested his head in his hands. He started hyperventilating. Stay calm Harry you can do this.

"Listen Liam, I just shit. I'm sorry."

"Oh well if you're sorry.." he said sarcastically.

"I don't want you to forgive me, I dont, I know I dont deserve your forgivness. I am truly sorry. And fuck Liam, I love you. These months have been torture. I don't have any friends, not that I deserve any, but I just I dont have you Liam. I never knew how much you meant to me until you fucking walked away."

He looked up at me and his eyes only read one thing.

Anger.

"You love me? Just like you wanted to fuck me? You don't love me and don't you fucking say you do! I spent these months trying to get over you and you repay me by lying to me, by saying you love me? YOU DONT LOVE ME. YOU ARE A LYING FUCK. What you did was horrible Harry, you used me! I hated myself for fucking letting you use me! So don't you dare trick me again because this time I am not falling for it."

I had tears in my eyes. I knew he wouldn't believe me. 

Then my brain had a thought.

I don't know where the sudden confidence came from but I ran over to him and cupped his face and kissed him hard. I tried to get his lips to move against mine. I needed them to. He stayed still. I broke my lips and looked deep into his eyes and whispered one very simple word, "Please." 

I sounded pathetic. Begging for a guy that hates me to kiss me. His eyes softened and I saw him flutter them shut and put his lips back on mine.

Our lips moved desperately together. I think we were both afraid the other would break away and just walk out. As if Liam read my mind he grabbed my hips making sure I was going know where,which I defiantly was not.

It was getting heated, but still just as passionate. I was straddling him and unlike the previous time, I was not picturing. anybody else. I didn't think this was disgusting.  

I loved every single second of it.

Before things got to out of hand we stopped, much to my request. I know Liam needs time and I will give that to him. 

"You won't leave me right?" he asked so innocently

"Never."

"And you will still be here in the morning?"

"Always."